so young
-
but if i sit in the rain,
maybe i can drown
in something other
than my own thoughts.
✰ Name ▸
Orion Saturn Extraz Wilder
✰ Meaning ▸
(Orion - ) (Wilder - )
✰ Nicknames ▸
Orry, Ryan, Extraordinary, Freak, Depresso,
The Anxious Kid
✰ Sex ▸
Male
✰ Gender ▸
Cis Male, but he has questioned and almost settled
with non-binary
✰ Pronouns ▸
He/Him , They/Them
✰ Age ▸
18 - 21
Can be edited//It varies
✰ Race ▸
Caucasian American British
Was born and slightly raised in America,
but was moved to England and raised mainly there
✰ Species ▸
Human
✰ Hair ▸
Caramel brown, glossy, slicked back, fluffy with no gel
✰ Eyes ▸
Baby blue/light grey, downturned
✰ Complexion ▸
Ash, pure, tanned, freckles, easily become pale, sensitive, heart face
✰ Height ▸
5'9"
✰ Weight ▸
173lbs
✰ Scars ▸
all down his legs + thighs = self harming, bunch on his back = child abuse
✰ Family ▸
Abusive mum + dad
Little brother + sister
✰ Voice▸
Singing - Troye Sivan
Speaking - WIP
✰ Mental Health ▸
Down the drain, major depression, major anxiety,
suicidal tendencies, has tried to commit multiple
times
✰ Physical Health ▸
Fine apart from his anorexia which causes his major skinniness and weight loss
✰ Relationship Status ▸
Has been in a few relationships - all ended in heartbreak and pain
✰ Sexual Orientation ▸
Closeted Homoromantic Asexual
Orion only experiences romantic feelings
towards males, and isn't really fond of the
idea of sex
✰ Likes ▸
His pills, the dark, being alone, his laptop, his phone,
harming himself, pretending he doesn't exist,
taking long walks, getting lost in the middle of nowhere,
camping, art, music, playing the guitar
✰ Dislikes ▸
Humaity, accepting his depression, himself,
his anxiety, his panic attacks, his diagnoses,
being in the company of literally anyone,
feeling weak (which is most of the time),
feeling useless, falling in love, his family
✰ Illnesses/Diseases ▸
Alien Hand Syndrome ; where a limb moves and acts without the owners awareness.
Orion's left hand/arm moves on it's own. Not all the time, it's quite rare, but it happens. He's unaware of it happening until he or someone else points it out, and he can't feel his arm/hand when it happens, which is often a dead giveaway for when it happens. It often just feels like it's by his side.
Congenital insensitivity to pain ; where the recipient does not feel any physical pain.
Orion cannot feel any pain whatsoever. He never has, and he never will. He can feel emotional pain, and he's very vulnerable to it, but he cannot feel any physical pain.
Anorexia ; an eating disorder where you throw back up your food, or sometimes you don't eat at all.
Orion barely eats, and when he does, it's usually only to convince someone he's alright. He quickly finds some privacy in a bathroom, and throws it all back up again. His body is extremely skinny because of it, and his ribs and most if his bones are very visible. He looks like he could break with the simplest touch.
✰ Habits ▸
✧ Harming himself
✧ Talking down on himself
✧ Feeling suicidal
✧ Talking openly about
suicide/depression/anxiety
✧ Biting his nails
✧ Scratching the bare ground
until his fingers bleed
✧ Doing anything to harm himself
✧ Getting stuck in panic attacks
✰ Phobia(s) ▸
✧ Agraphobia; The fear of sexual abuse.
From past experiences, Orion is petrified of
being raped, or any type of sexual assault.
✧ Algophobia; The fear of pain.
From his diagnoses, Orion is afraid of feeling
physical pain. He's fine with mental pain, but
from lack of experience, he's deadly afriad
of feeling physical pain.
✰ Personality ▸
Self destructive, pessimistic, sad,
kind + caring to others,
hates himself, selfless,
often thinks he's pathetic,
is actually pretty strong,
no sign of resilience,
takes time to recover almost always