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Born a Calderon, never knowing whether that was a good or a bad thing. Her parents having her at a young age; the classic forbidden love story about the good girl falling in love with the bad boy. A positive pregnancy test, moving away to focus on their daughter. Eleanor Calderon was born.
Growing up in the suburbs, close to the schools, loads of children to play with. And lovely parents. What more could she ask for?
Becoming a big sister, that ruined everything. Jealousy happened. Making bad things to get her parents attention back on her.
A horrible child. People always talked about her sister, always asking about her. Oh Matilda, always the favorite. There were only good things to say about her. Unlike herself.
A troublemaker from a young age. Irritating and messing with the neighbors - even her teachers at school -, anything to get a reaction from her parents. It never worked. In fact, it got worse. Getting picked on in her own home, always being too skinny, having the wrong hair color or ''why couldn't you just be more like your sister?'' Never really having the recognition from home, making her crave it more as she got older. Wanting love. Needing love.
Falling in love with every single guy she's. They never fall back. Always Matilda, having the best friends and all the boys she wanted. Herself, the second choice. Only wanting her if they couldn't have her sister. Letting it be like that for years, a little love - a second love - was better than none. Lonely in all her relations, even her friends always speaking about her sister. Asking herself, would she ever be enough? Stopping getting along with it, moving out, stopping all contact with her family, for the first time in her life, being able to breathe and figure out, who she actually was.
25 years old, New York, living her best life possible. Not wealthy or popular, but being her. Dating, drinking, getting loose. It's all in the cards for her, forgetting the chaos and low self esteem her family caused her. Wishing to have her own children some day, wanting to be better, wanting to be their everything, unlike her own.
A hopeless romantic, though she has never really experienced the real kind of it. Never letting that go, but not ever settling for less every again. She won’t be the second choice to a man that is her first.
Learning to build up relations, making friends was never easy for her, she was never good enough for anyone. After building her own life, it's gotten better. She's gotten better. Rarely talking about herself, fearing they will get bored and dump her. -
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