NOTHING
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In the darkness she found herself shaking, screaming and crying, hoping someday somebody would help her out. It never happened. The feeling of being scared, not knowing his next move. She was just a child.
Of course, no one ever saw this coming, no ever ever had a clue. He seemed like the perfect fit for her mother: a rich gentleman, successful businessman, a man of people - and completely in love with her tragedy of a mother. Never a steady and fair life, it was mostly about the drugs and parties for her, which lead to having two children with two different men. This man was good for her. But not to her children.
Her brother never being good enough in the eyes of him; he acted like their father from the very first moment they moved in with him. In the beginning it was mostly taken out on the brother of hers. Coming home with a scratch or forgetting to turn off the lights was just enough for him to get angry. At first just locking him in his room, later on it was physical.
Getting scared of him, though he had never laid a hand on her. Crying and blocking her ears whenever her brother took the consequences.
Turning 11, 5 years gone with this kind of life. Not scared anymore, yet not liking him. Simply just accepted the fact that this was her life now. Until one night that changed everything. Watching a scary movie, she just wanted to sleep next to her mother for the night.
His hands between her legs; touching her places she had never even touched herself.
Becoming a routine, it happened at least twice a week until she turned 18. Starting high school at the age of 14, getting the perfect shot for a cry for help. Yet never telling a soul. Feeling dirty and ashamed, but no one noticed. Feeling alone, despite being super popular. Having lots of friends, lots of male ones as well, but none of them really knew her.
Meeting him. Feeling genuinely happy for the first time in a long time. Young, stupid and completely crazy in love with him; she didn’t see the red flags.
Manipulative, controlling and deeply jealous. Putting her through her second hell. At home being harassed physically, out being harassed mentally. Too afraid of him to break up. Making all of her moments his own. This girl was his property now.
Getting her pregnant, she was just 16. Getting blamed for cheating and becoming with child on purpose. Mostly going through it alone.
Forcing her to get an abortion, cutting her off.
Living in the city, partying the problems away. Knowing her for years; she will never confide you her traumas.
Letting every man touch her; each touch is a step further away from him. Never sleeping alone, afraid of the lonely feeling.
A horrible friend; she will always come first.
Love is out of the picture, been there and done that = it doesn’t exist. -
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