Mashenka

Lovers and Haters

• Connections

  Friends

  Kodin (played by JustAWolf)

  Fae'iqa (played by Jynx)

  Jihan (played by CrescentNomad)

  Acantha (played by Caberoni)

  Domitia (played anonymously)

  Arisu Kagawa (played by Magnakor)

  Arana Rothscomb (played by Spoody)

  Biers (played by Ypres)

  Brandy (played by BrandyCat)

  Sharla (played by Vap)

  Ruina (played anonymously)

  Drach (played by Isnelx)

  nessuno (played anonymously)

  Allurean (played anonymously)

  Thessalia (played anonymously)

  Bayne (played by Desisyes)

  Lashing (played by Desisyes)

  Caliste (played anonymously)

  Enemies

  Laurent (played by Essie)

  Myni Lama (played anonymously)

  Sierra (played anonymously)

  Family

  Safira (played anonymously)

  Karnal (played anonymously)

  Acquaintance

  Kalev (played by Esoterica)

  Siena (played anonymously)

  Missa (played by Embry)

  Frei (played by Mikitfence)

  Hibiki (played by Bunneh)

  Kieko (played by Duh_Brat)

  Maebh (played by ferabird)

  Dominatrix (played anonymously)

  Bulg Gogi (played anonymously)

  Majesty (played by Queen)

  Nefra (played anonymously)

  Tijan (played by Bedlam_Babe)

  Muunokhoi (played anonymously)

  The Englishman (played by Hooke)

  Aba (played by Carebear)

  Dressage (played anonymously)

  Zephara (played by Ouija)

  Bas Rouge (played by Dothraki)

  Nayara Gariard (played by Ahrun)

  Janvier (played anonymously)

  Augustine (played anonymously)

  Bloodline (played by savannahsage)

  Setare (played by Bunneh)

  Irene (played anonymously)

  Birdy (played by Pretty_Bird)

  Zarlinda (played by Desisyes)

  Era (played anonymously)

  Mikeayla Renard (played anonymously)

  Dulce (played anonymously)

  Acaeus Vertis (played by Michonne)

  Aurora (played by BrandyCat)

  Tainlong (played by Agdragoon)

  Hassan (played anonymously)

  Trygve (played anonymously)

  Shan (played by Cass)

  Affair (played anonymously)

  Lyssic (played by Lyssic)

  Avarick (played by TypistSimian)

  Arrow (played by stonecoldwolfga)

  Natasha (played by Lizzie)

  Lux Dawnbringer (played anonymously)

  Mistress Anessix (played anonymously)

  Pesochnyy (played anonymously)

  Conlare (played anonymously)

  Ailuin (played by Michonne)

  Kaizen (played by Trishields)

  Korye (played by Desisyes)

• Journal

  • WTF January 25th 2016, 1:40 pm

    Where do I even begin? I really probably should have learned by now not to stick my dick in crazy, but goddamnit! The crazy ones are the best. But now I can't sleep because this one woman, let's call her Brandy, has the same exact insane in the membrane sort of look in her eye as my ex did. You remember Carr, don't you? The one that took the children and ran off somewhere? Yeah, well, now her crazy ass second cousin or whoever Brandy is has come back to give me the flashbacks about the father I may never get to be. Maybe I should go over there and give her a token of my displeasure. Or maybe I'm just losing it due to sleep deprivation again. Apparently I am because nobody will get within twenty feet of me without a lot of backup handy. That's usually a good sign that I'm a little fucked up.

  • Void April 17th 2015, 8:36 pm

    I have to force myself to write this. Got to prove they didn't win. They tried to take my mind. They almost got it, too.
    
    It's a lot to digest. I fear the visions will never go away. I've been affected somehow in a way I can't describe. There's this looming sense of dread, just barely on the edge of perception. But it's there, always. Even now in the company of old friends and enemies, I wonder if I'm still locked away like an animal. Perhaps this is all an elaborate delusion and I'm still being dissected.
    
    Ever been taken apart and reassembled? I have. Multiple times, in fact. These butchers, they wanted to know how my healing worked. So they took me apart, knowing it wouldn't kill me. The pain wasn't so bad, but being left alone for days on end with no company except your own pieces suspended in jars of embalming fluid, hanging there unable to do or say or hear anything, completely conscious of what's happened to you...well. It messes with your brain. They repeated this process more times than I care to count.
    
    Without food or sleep, my mind drifted into what I call a void. Imagine being cut off from all sensation. You can still see and hear, but what happens doesn't matter. It's like a recurring dream. I know what's coming, but I can't do anything about it. At some point, I lost the will to even move or even think about resisting these experiments. I was aware of everything, but no matter how much I screamed inside my own mind, my body wouldn't move.
    
    And then it all stopped. They put me back together and dropped me offshore of the Tether. The tide eventually dragged me in. I walked for days around the island until finally someone noticed me. It was Lati. She's been helping me. It took me a long time, but I've finally put the pieces of my mind back together into something resembling normalcy. But I can still hear my tormentors, whispering in the distance. Maybe I'm still in that cell...

  • Well, that sucked. December 17th 2014, 11:50 am

    It has been a rough couple of weeks.
    
    Well, I had a career first: my very first attempt at suicide. Given that I'm writing this, you can probably gauge how well that turned out. What drove me to it? A lot of things, really. Perhaps a little background information is in order. Latikara and I have been seeing a lot of each other. Not really a shock, I know, but the fact of the matter is that neither of us thought much about it. We were just having fun and relaxing in our off time. There was also this one time we went to a different dimension, killed the 'god' of some indigenous folk and boned on its corpse--holy shit, I hope nobody ever finds out about that. Anyway, she surprised me on my birthday in October. Charmed herself into human form, which I have a huge boner for. Well, I thought that was the end of it.
    
    Just my luck, it turns out that in some cosmic coincidence she met the criteria necessary for us to...procreate. I normally can't get a woman pregnant. Carr was a freak accident--but more on that later. Point is, she was pregnant and didn't tell me for several weeks. When I found out, it undid my self-induced amnesia. Gone. In the space of five seconds, everything I'd forgotten came rushing out of a small crack in the dam holding them in check. As you can imagine, that kind of freaked me out and I had to excuse myself. Well, once I'd calmed down, I told Lati in no uncertain terms that I didn't want to be a father again. I don't know why Carr left and I can only assume that I failed my previous family in some kind of way. Perhaps I'll never know. But as you can imagine, I really didn't want to repeat the process. She...didn't agree. In fact, she attacked me. In retrospect, it was probably hormones. All the same, I defended myself and seeing her unconscious as a result, well. I just couldn't go through with it anymore. If we were already fighting before the child was even born, what would happen months down the line when she was feeling REALLY crazy? For a moment there, I really thought I'd killed the child and damn if that didn't double down on the sensation of opening an old wound and feeling like a failure all over again. So I went to the cliffs.
    
    Mazel and Lati both tried to stop me, but once I make up my mind that I want to do something, there isn't much that can stop me from doing it. They both gave me the same speech about how I was needed here and all that noise, but I didn't listen. Guess I wanted to atone for the child I thought I killed, it gets kind of hazy at this point. All the same, I jumped off that cliff and it hurt. A lot. Didn't kill me, though.
    
    Well, turns out I did in the end. Stressed Lati out enough for her to lose the kid, unfortunately. But this whole ordeal made me confront the past and present and I'm a better wolf monster for it. If Lati decides that she actually does want a child later on, I'll be ready. Until then, I guess we'll just have to continue business as usual. Like making chastity belts for slaves to preserve their virginity--wait, what?

  • Surrounded November 27th 2013, 6:45 pm

    Idiots! I'm fucking surrounded by idiots!
    
    So, I'm out in the main hall doing my thing. This one slave kept getting smart with me, so I started raining down some serious bitch slaps on her. I was feeling pretty good about myself, too. And then the inconceivable happened. The impossible, the unthinkable, the extraordinary the OW I JUST DROPPED MY THESAURUS ON MY BALLS.
    
    Ahem. Anyway, you sitting down for this? Because this is incredible: I became the voice of reason. Now just sit there and let that sink in for a minute. Me. The guy that hallucinates near constantly, breaks people for a living and resorts to cannibalism because it's more fun than grocery shopping...was the voice of reason.
    
    Yeah. Check this shit out. While I'm busy slapping some sense into this slave, I hear something going down behind me. And I don't mean 'going down' in the fun way where somebody ends up with a pearl necklace afterwards, I mean shouting and scuffling. So, I let the slave go and look to see the source of the disturbance and it was LATIKARA AND RAGINFRIK at each others' throats like rival supervillains. I jumped right into action and tried to break them up, but next thing I know, Raginfrik and someone I'll only refer to as Captain Save A Hoe start attacking me while I'm restraining Latikara. Now, I'm a big guy, I can take care of myself and all. I was just a little surprised that it was my co-workers fighting like children. They really ought to know better than that. Anyway! Pretty sure I gave Lati a concussion, dislocated Ragin's jaw and as for Captain Save A Hoe, well... it didn't end well for him. At all.
    
    All in all, a good day's work, I'd say.
    
    - The Mighty Balactus, Destroyer of Cervixes

  • The Descent November 27th 2013, 5:37 am

    For a long time, I was terrified to open this book. I was right to be apprehensive of its contents. From the looks of it, I was carrying it with me during that whole...unpleasantness a while back. Here's what I found.
    
    9/15 - It was my fault. One of my co-workers let it slip that my amnesia was my own doing. Why would I do that?! Something must have gone terribly wrong for me to resort to such drastic measures. Do I even want to know what caused me to get a memory wipe? I mean, by its very nature, the answer should obviously be no. I forgot it for a reason, right? Now that I'm alone and away from the ambient noise of the main hall, I could swear I can hear a woman's voice whispering to me. It is at once familiar and unnerving. It's also not from the chorus of voices I normally hear talking to me when I'm by myself. Maybe I'll calm down after a few drinks and a good nights' sleep.
    
    9/21 - That idiot squirrel. Just knowing about the memory wipe has actually partially restored what I was trying to forget. At least, that's my only explanation for what's going on here. I keep seeing ghostly images in my suite. A feline woman with long, black hair, blue eyes and a red leather corset. She watches me in silence even when I try to make contact. This specter haunts my dreams as well, making it increasingly difficult to sleep. My slaves are growing concerned. According to them, I angrily scream at this person in my slumber.
    
    9/25 - As if I didn't have enough woman trouble, I've caught the eye of some...fox chick. She doesn't look like she can do much damage, but she managed to sedate me and get me off the island somehow. Apparently she's quite infatuated with me despite my attempts to reason with her. She really wants to bear my puppies. This isn't going to make it any easier to sleep, knowing someone like this can access my living quarters despite the security I have in place. Granted, I got reacquainted with a djinn recently named Jihan who is also able to slip right past said security. He says I should take a vacation, ease my mind a little. I'm starting to think he's on to something.
    
    9/28 - She keeps getting into my room no matter how secure it is. No choice. Can't go to sleep at all now. Have to watch the door. The ghostly woman from before still stares at me in cold, unfeeling silence. The longer I stay awake, the darker her eyes get. If I'm awake much longer, her eyes will only be comparable to the void. I've sent my slaves to a separate suite. They don't understand. None of them do.
    
    10/1 - Day 3 with no sleep. Going to keep going on duty to keep busy. I think they can tell I'm not holding it together very well. The ghost woman, she follows me even into the crowded areas now. She has never done that before. I haven't heard from my 'stalker' in a few days. Hopefully she hasn't conceived after our last encounter. That noise...like voices echoing in a cave. Unless somebody is talking directly to me, that's all I can hear.
    
    10/4 - Day 6. The sound is constant and unbearably loud now. My eyes hurt and don't want to stay open anymore. I don't care. You're not going to get me. Do you hear me, bitch?! You're not going to win.
    
    10/5 - They're all in on it. All of them. The slaves, my manager, my co-workers. Even after I helped them resolve that zombie situation. I'll show them.
    
    10/7 - Meat Blood Echoes Emptiness Alone
    
    10/9 - They're coming for me...
    
    Holy sparkling vampires, Batman! I lost my goddamn mind for a while there. I really should see a doctor or something. By the way, that ghost bitch is still here. I don't give a rat's pubic hair, either. I'm about to fuck Roxana in the ass right in front of her. How you like me now, ghost bitch?!
    
    - The Mighty Balactus, Destroyer of Cervixes

  • Goddamn Fairies July 29th 2013, 6:15 pm

    Oh, I don't fucking believe this. Not only do I get zapped into...whose body is this, anyway?! It's some kind of feline female that I've never seen before. Well, that just leaves me one course of action: track down my own body and wreck this one until she gives it back. After I have my fun with it, that is. Ha, masturbation jokes!
    
    Seriously, I'm pretty fucking livid about this.
    
    GODDAMNIT, WHY DOES MY HAND KEEP MAKING THESE FRUITY LITTLE FLOURISHES WHEN I WRITE?!

  • Memory Wipe June 20th 2013, 11:50 am

    Carr left me and took the children with her. No good-byes, no slammed doors, no arguments, just gone like a silent fart in a sand storm. Don't ask me how I know how feeble farts are in sand storms, I just do.
    
    As you can imagine, it left me...rather upset. A while ago, I threw that one manly-faced squirrel bitch through a wall and into the bar. Red didn't like that very much, but after a while she just got sick of me not listening and told me to leave. I suppose I could do the adult thing and just learn to live with this huge emotional trauma or I could just take the easy way out and somehow strike Carr and by extension the last few years of my life from my memory altogether. Guess which one I'm going with?
    
    Yeah, I'm going to go see a guy with some magical voodoo powers or something tomorrow. I thought I'd be broken up about forgetting all the acquaintances I made while living here, but nope. It's going to save me a lot of grief and I may even have a new appreciation for my job. As far as I will know, I will have always worked here at the Tether. My time as a slave will lead to an abrupt change of position, but who ever got tired of playing with power? ...apparently I'm being sued by Nintendo for that last sentence, but the joke is on them!
    
    On a more serious note, good-bye to all my past lovers. Hopefully we'll meet again, Jihan and Roxana and...man, I don't think I should write all these names down. Anyway, I'll be ripping out my previous entries, starting with this one. Why did I bother writing it, you're probably asking even though you don't have a mouth unlike certain other evil books I could mention? Well, I had to get all of this off my chest and I've got fans who like to read this sort of thing that you can't see!
    
    Anyway, good-bye, conspicuously ripped journal. I'll return once the operation is complete.
    
    - The Mighty Amnesiac Balactus, Destroyer of Cervixes and Memories

  • Blackout February 11th 2013, 7:13 pm

    This just can't be happening. I don't remember much of last night, but I'll try and write down what I do remember. Maybe it will help me recover the time I lost.
    
    Anyway, last night I was having a few drinks at the bar with my minions. Actually, the other guards hate it when I call them minions and henchmen, but that's okay. They don't have what I have: a 7 foot cawk! Wait, I kind of lost track of what I was talking about.
    
    Oh, right. So there I am with Evelyn and a few of the guys and we took turns taking shots of the Dirty Mistress. Now, I thought that when I did this I would be okay because I was off duty and not in my uniform. After my third shot, everything went black and when I came to, I was lying out in the grass of the garden. My head felt like somebody was stomping on it while continually banging a gong while my brain was having a hallucinogen party. There were black rocks all around me.
    
    And there she was, peering at me from around her hilariously huge boobs. Siena (I like to call her Red) was standing there shaking her head with a few of the other guys flanking her.
    
    "Mashenka," she said, "I am disappoint." Not disappointed, mind you. Disappoint. Anyway, she had me taken away and apparently those black rocks were the remains of the memorial in the garden. She says I got stupid drunk and completely fucked it up. Now I've got to wear this stupid collar and serve drinks and shit. Fuck.
    
    Fuck. FUCK. FUCKFUCK
    
    *this continues for 3 pages*
    
    - The Mighty Balactus, Destroyer of Cervixes

  • Once Upon a Beginning February 2nd 2013, 4:39 pm

    Dear whatever the fuck you are.
    
    Are diaries a feminine thing? I usually hear it in that context, so I suppose this would make you a journal. Whatever. The point here is that quite a few people think I should keep one of these because it'll help me with my 'rage issues'. What, just because I like maiming, murdering and cooking people, that means I have anger problems? Is everyone who hears voices in their minds insane? That is absolutely ridiculous.
    
    So, a few things have been going on in the Tether. Apparently our house slave Rose pissed someone off. She has been on some kind of punishment for the past month or so on Red's orders. No idea what she did, but I haven't been able to get a crack at her. Maybe I will tonight at the event that's supposedly marking the end of this punishment. What? It's hard being a father of four. All these 'responsibilities' and bullshit like that. Whatever happened to the days when I could just go out, grab a slave and fuck them senseless without anyone getting in the way? Now it's all: "Puppy, don't do this." "Puppy, keep your boners to yourself." "Puppy, stop teaching the children to be awesome." "Puppy, stop infecting people with your crazy."
    
    FUCK YOU, CARR. FUCK YOU RIGHT IN YOUR PERFECT LITTLE KITTY ASS.
    
    Huh. Maybe I do have some unchecked anger.
    
    - The Mighty Balactus, Destroyer of Cervixes