Lauriana Zanar-Telos Nefast

Had to look up the date on my phone for this one. Don't even know where the time has gone.

Where did I leave off last time? After Greth let me out, I met up with Missy. She was holding a fair of sorts. Arts. Would have loved to have made it.

Met someone who was cutting Greth up.. In the truest sense. They must have a deal. The guy doesn't seem all bad. Got to talk with him later that week. I think? Everything is running together.

After multiple attempts to get Queenie and the King off my back, I ended up pissing Queenie off even more. She locked me up, but didn't have the sense to think about my phase jumping; luckily.

This guy, Anthoni, at least gave me a place to stay the night. The realms and dimensions of demons are still an odd concept. The room was extremely lavished. Don't even get me started on the deal we made. I will NOT become a bride again. Never. Getting to know one another though, that could be a potential friendship.

Those spiders of his. Hopefully they didn't follow me.

I can't even remember if I've been eating right. Everything is so confusing. Can't even sleep. He's always there.

Will was apparently in the hospital. Said Sergei fucked him up. I wish I could be there for him. Wish I could understand the concept of giving him space but keeping the relationship going. Even his RV was messed up. Something about a bear. I have a good idea of one were-bear that may have done it..

Can't though. I will not be the reason for his piss poor luck. I refuse. Need to stay away from him. We talked at his RV. I'd rather stay away then get on his back about everything. He's got help, from what I've seen. He's also healing still. I'll just stay away. If he cares maybe he'll try to get ahold of me? I despise drama, but care for him. I'll let him decide.

Also met another old wolf. They are quite elegant, even in their lycan form. Missy's friend. Has a brother, Del, and an all too cute, rather large bat, IB.

Got a call from Jenam. Says my son is doing alright. Something about him traveling soon.

None of this is making sense. Even as I write it.

I give up. Would it have been better to just stay where I was? Let Fenris find me again?

Greth let me out. Can't think straight. Going to take a long walk. Might do some errands.

I don't want to think about what happened in that darkness. He was there. Have to get this out of my head. Not enough sleep. Well fed. Can't close my eyes.

He stuck me in the basement in Seattle.. Are you fucking serious?!

I don't know how to get out, it's all bars and.. is this actually a fucking cage?! What does he keep down here? You know what.. That's better left unasked.

Left food, water, blankets, there's a couch. When will he get back? Is he mad about me going to try to help out with the situation I started? Shit. Should have never said a word. Maybe.

I'll figure a way out. Can't phase jump, tried and nearly fried myself towards a long nap. Need to find a way. I hope that were-bear isn't trying to get a hold of me yet. Where did my stuff go?

Hungry..

Found a lead. Not a very wise lead, seeing as it's that were-bear from the other day. None the less, it's a lead.
Honestly, I find it somewhat amusing that the girl was grocery shopping when I came across her. Such an every day event for running into someone you fought with not too long ago; both in different forms. She didn't react in the way I expected her too. Might even say she had it on her mind that she'd run into me again? They must be looking.

Now that I think about it.. Wasn't Will yelling a name at her before, in that warehouse?

Asked if I had a death wish. Do I? I think this might be the second time someone has asked me that in the past few days. I'm starting to wonder if I actually might.

I asked. Tried to let her take me in, figuring I might be able to make repercussions for my actions. Can't remember all of the night. Trying, but it's making my head feel worse.

Speaking of deals, Gorin's makes me quite uneasy. I have to agree to the terms, already marked this deal in blood.

The were-bear even asked me for Slick's information. The mob believes Slick is working with a partner? An outside partner. But for what? I guess she knows that Slick is my boyfriend, but at this point I wonder if he even considers himself such. It's hard to think of that, but I'll stick by my word.

I'm use to physical pain. This is just confusing.

The girl wanted the name of his partner. If it is who I think it is, there's no possible way I would say anything. There's no way I'd give anyone Slick's information, either way. He's important, and I made a vow to myself to keep his secrets. I made a promise to him as well. Unless he breaks down that too, there will be no words spoken on that subject.

When I said no, she asked what I could bring to the table. She'd said something about a job too. Was I asking for one? I wouldn't ask for a job from them, but hey, if asking gets me information and can repay the affront to neutral standing? By all means, girlie. Offered for her to take me in. Oddly enough, she held the offer on middle ground, for later? Said to think about her question on Slick's info, and she'd think about bringing me in. Huh, odd cookie, that one. Gave her the number to my backup phone; going to have to get that from the bike.

I tailed her. Tracked her after I lost sight. I'll have to retrace the track point I placed on my phone tomorrow. Technology with pinpoint accuracy, J keeps telling me. Want this to be right, no mess ups. Need this to work.

Need Will to be safe. His kid, his friends. Even from me, it would seem.

I see people writing in books all the time. Never thought to keep my own journal. There has been quite a bit of problems popping up everywhere. I should probably keep this up to date. Don't know how long I have left before someone takes me out, either way. Can someone be so close to death more than twice?

I'll start with the last few events.. Went to see Will. After he'd taken off with his RV and all. That note, do I still have it? Don't know where he's going, and I don't think he wants me to know. Said some stuff about getting Dean into the mob, trying to get him back out. That he had actually planned to end up in that warehouse, oddly enough.

I can feel the trust breaking between us. Don't want him to worry. Might disappear for a while myself. Fix everything that was started that night. Either he would understand, or he would move on. Both acceptable, or he might end up like Sid..

Said about his friends, daughter, himself, and myself being in trouble now, because of me. My fault? Yes, I agree that if I had known he was okay; what with how he's been acting and the sudden disappearance of not only him but Dean before that? If I had known that he was going for a purpose? Known he was going and wouldn't be hurt by the others there? Probably would have never went..

I gave him Rifka's card. Said to call her, to protect Chloe. He's being too stubborn to do it, said he doesn't need my protection. She's already got him under protection, and of course she likely already knows about Chloe's whereabouts if she was digging into it like she'd said, so hopefully she's already on the ball with protecting his kid too? I don't want her in his business. But how do you tell your queen to fuck off? She was in my head when we started talking, didn't realize it till that little 'got it' remark. Crafty bitch.

I'm going to meet up with the people from that night. Logically, they did not seem to want to attack, only defend. Except for that cattle prod.. And that girl's were-bear claws. From what I remember after shifting to werewolf form. Gotta figure out a way to get that moon shift under better control.

I'll speak with Greth after. Apologize for my absence, even though he told me to stay at the apartment. If I need to, I'll phase jump. It's not something I enjoy, but also necessity. They only know I'm a werewolf, right? That doctor was there that took care of me twice before though. Could be risky. And they still have Dean, perhaps?

Going to figure this out. Keep those close safe. No regrets. No more mistakes.