Danter

So it's been a while since I wrote in this thing.

T'be honest I only like wrote in it once an' tha was a long assed time ago.

Alot 'as 'appened since then, me and Lai are still t'gether and we still aimlessly strolling through life.

Lai turned into a woman a few months ago, man tha' guy is a smoking female I tell ya! Couldn't keep ma hands off him! Lai too, always on my ass about fucking him senseless! I'd obliged tho, much t'my aching body wasn't willing but the spirit was!

Didn't last long though, lai being a girl an all, shame really. But, he didn't come back to normal as expected. Turns out his cock didn't come back, turns out he still has his clam pocket. We took to a fae creature doctor, telling lailan that he was pregnant.

Now I know what yer thinking, "Lai?! Preggers?! Poor kid" right?

Well lai weren't too thrilled I c'n tell ya.. he beat my ass, but he ain't got rid of it...

To tell ya the truth, I'm really excited, I didn't think a fiend like me would have a chance at being a father, maybe this baby is my chance to nurture something awesome and not let it make the same mistakes I did....

Maybe this its the closest to being real than I'll ever get? I mean, I still don't have my own soul but...

I fucking created one, that's gotta be an accomplishment! The joy I feel right now? Sneaking in when lai's asleep to just love on that belly? Means the world to me, I'm so 'appy...nothing could ruin this fer me.

So, never wrote one o'these before. Guess I should since Lai ain't comin back fer a while, somethin fer him t'read when he comes back eh?

So, i fink he's in deep shit. Says he can't leave the ship he's on, 'avent met the big cahoona tho. I tried to command he come home with the bridle but that just made 'im mad, i know why he was mad, if he leaves the ship he'll be a zombie like the rest. Fuck...what do I do? I can't live without him fer too long, i know fer a fact I'll get the itch and jus' fuck up, fuck ma self up or worse. Said I can fuck whoever I want but somehow I dun believe him, can't say it ain't tempting tho...but I dun wanna fuck anyone else. I know why he said it tho, he dun want me to fall back inta drugs so he wants me t'use up my libido. Heh, ironic tha the only drug I want is him. Always been addicted even if he can't treat me like china, he hurts so good and loves so hard. I'm rambling in dis thing aye I?

Gods, i miss him tho. I want him back, i tried to get all social but I dun feel it, i force myself an it's like...shit. I'll get yer back Lai, even if it kills meh.