Of Flesh and Bone
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Name: Crow Heart
Nickname(s): Crow, Teddy / Teddybear
Pen Name: Andrew Crispin
Race: Caucasian Human
Age: 25 years
Birthday: February 14
Gender: Genderfluid - Usually He/Him
Sexuality: Pansexual / Demiromantic
Occupation: As he roams around he finds random jobs. He's always writing and doing art at home however, and has published a few books (under his pen name), and while his art doesn't make much money, if he ever has time for a show, he loves to sell at them.
Likeness: Jensen Ackles
Eyes: Brown-Amber. He has eyelashes that make every woman in a ten mile radius cry in jealousy.
Hair: Brown and naturally very curly, but he keeps it short, so that rarely shows. Occasionally he'll grow some scruff or a beard, but his facial hair really depends on his mood.
Height:] 6'8 (Approx 2 meters)
Body Type: Large. Crow's rather fit and muscular; He doesn't have show-boy abs, but he looks like he's built for work. He honestly almost looks like some knight and shining armor from a fairy-tale. He's a big boy... Bubble butt sculpted by the gods. Shaven legs and armpits 99% of the time (it feels nice okay leave him alone).
NSFW: Crow always keeps himself clean and trimmed in his lower regions; His treasure trail is minimal and always kept neat, and this area is always clean.
Erect, Crow boasts a length of about 8.5 inches.
Skin: Naturally pale, but can tan if he's out enough. Freckle monster.
Marks: No birthmarks, other than his freckles.
Scars: Has random scars all over. Crow's genitals, while they might have been described as perfect had his past not been what it was, has quite a few scars on it, especially on his head, though a few linger down his shaft and testicles as well; He also has quite a few scars around his bum. He's very nervous about these and often avoids talking about them at all costs if brought up by lovers.
Personality: Caretaker, extremely gentle, too forgiving for his own good. Introverted. Crow was raised in an environment that molded him into being a protector, no matter what it meant of him to give; He often offers help to the point where it ends up annoying people, and often will put himself in danger for the people he cares about, often including people he's never met as well, if it means keeping them safe. He's extremely nervous, being a giant ball of anxiety, though he likes to think he's able to keep it all in his head, for the most part. He's always worried about what people think of him, especially those he holds dear. He's got such a good heart that's been bruised and beaten down over time, but he continues to pour love into everything he does and everyone he meets, no matter how short their interaction. He wants the world to be a better place for everyone else than it has been for him.
Mental Illnesses: Depression. PTSD (of which the mun is awful at portraying, apologies in advance...)
Mannerisms: Scratches his jaw lightly when nervous. Stutters when nervous.
Likes: Snow, Cold, CATS, Food/Cooking, Fall/Winter, Writing, Reading, Kids, Tea
Dislikes: Wary of paternal figures, Being short, Abuse of women / children, Coffee
Hobbies: Writing, Art, Photography, Reading
Vices: Anxiety
Fears / Phobias: Parental figures (especially paternal), Not being able to help people, Turning out like his parents
Kinks:You've been warned.Crow has a preference for small women, especially ones with little to no curves. The smaller their hips / breasts / bum the better. However, this being said, he's not against heavier set ladies, but women with stereotypical hourglass figures don't interest him.
If you're masculine, the taller and buffer you are, the better.
Crow likes being dominated. Not violently, but he likes being bottom. He's not against being dominant / topping himself, but definitely has a strong preference in being a sub.
He has a period kink. Specifically Crow really likes to go down on his partners when they're on their periods, but he's absolutely willing to partake in insertion as well... Oral is just a preference, but one he's very shy about telling people.
Being told how to pleasure himself while his partner watches.
Watching his partner pleasure themselves while being unable to touch himself and/or them.
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History
TRIGGER WARNING:
Child abuse. Mentions of sexual abuse. Mentions of manipulation. Homophobia mention.
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Crow was born into a seemingly nice enough of a family. His mother, Genesis Peyton, was a few years younger to his father, Leo Heart. The latter came from an extremely wealthy and well known family, the former having always been loved by those she was close to, seen as a gentle soul with a kind heart. The two fell in love during highschool. Perhaps it was a warning sign of Leo's personality and future as a father when he, a senior, got Genesis, a year-young freshman naive to the world, pregnant. Due to the situation, Leo asked Genesis to marry him about four months into her pregnancy, and despite their circumstances, they seemed happy. Leo, half-way due to his family's status, made sure that Genesis wanted for nothing; The two were even granted their own apartment, payed for until the children were born by his parents. Despite their situation, via hard work (and more than a bit of string-pulling from family connections), Leo rose in his working ranks while Genesis stayed at home with their newborns.
Genesis, always having some draw to socially unconventional names, named the children Lion and Crow, a girl and a boy, both apparently identical. Leo took quite a liking to both, though in different ways. Lion was his princess, Crow was soon to become his toy.
The two children, while they wanted for nothing and were provided the best education there was to offer, varied wildly in personality and upbringing. Crow's sister was extremely extroverted, always surrounded by other children, always happy and excitable, her first memories of her mother and playing with the woman. Crow, on the other hand, was an extremely introverted little boy who's first memories were of his father, and certainly in no positive connotation or denotation. The boy, from a young age, was subservient to his father, who, as far back as Crow could remember, would abuse him sexually.
As Crow got older, what he lacked in social graces (and in size, easily being the runt of the two children), he more than made up for in intelligence. Lion, while certainly a smart girl, greatly lagged behind her brother, who blossomed within his book-work rather than around other children. The two were kept within the same grades however, Crow's mother never wanting him to feel out of place among older children, feeling that keeping the siblings together was best for them both; It made Lion resent her brother, and Crow submissive to his sister, who often picked on him, only getting worse in these actions as the two got older.
Due to his intelligence however, Crow always had free time, never having to worry about school-work getting the better of him. More than a few times throughout his earlier years, he had a few teachers comment about how he was a real-life Matilda, always reading and never more than an arm's length from a book. He read everything from poetry to children's books to thousand-page fantasy novels to higher-level textbooks. If he had a free moment to read, he was doing so.
He was never enough for his father however, who was obsessed with perfection, always pressing Crow to do better. This has bred a constant fear of never being good enough within Crow, this fear following him to this day. He's never good enough.
awful at it, but it did fill out his tall, lanky silhouette with muscle, and he soon filled out into a very handsome young man, who was always flustered whenever girls talked to him, if only due to his own feelings of inadequacy.
At twelve years of age for the twins, Genesis had two more children, another set of twins, one a girl and one a boy; Coral and Spirit. Crow immediately took to his little sister, the runt of the two, and found a friend he never knew he needed outside of his own imaginary book world. The family quickly learned that the children had Waardenburg Syndrome, and while Spirit was only deaf in one ear, Coral had no hearing whatsoever. Taking care of this little pair brought its troubles to the family, but Crow helped the little girl blossom, teaching himself sign language, among the few other languages he had accrued by this point, in order to speak with the girl.
As with Crow, however, Leo had taken a liking to this girl, now treating her in the same fashion he did Crow, though certainly 'lighter', testing his limits. By this time, he had become sadistic with Crow, giving his boy scars unseen by the outside world. This father would often threaten Coral with worse punishment if Crow did not behave in his own abuse, and as such, the boy became even more submissive.
In mid-highschool, puberty hit little runty Crow like a truck, and the boy sprouted like a tree. Due to his intelligence, and a desire to put off being home as long as possible, Crow joined every club and after-school activity he could, while his father also pressed him into joining sports, football mainly. Crow was
During his senior year of highschool, Crow met another boy of the same age, and while they quickly became friends, Crow felt more and was quite scared of the feelings he gained. Eventually, feeling safe with his mother, he explained to her that he wasn't sure how he felt, that he liked girls, but he also felt he liked boys as well, and at this point, he wasn't sure
what to label himself as, whether gay or straight. His mother was unsure how to respond, but said she'd support her son, happy with his decisions or no. She, wishing to come to a more definite opinion, spoke with her husband, who kept Crow home from school the next day, if only to try and 'beat the gay out of him'. Crow immediately stopped talking to his friend and went through the last of his highschool year as silently as he possibly could.
By the time he was nineteen, the horrors that Crow's father had inflicted upon him and his little sister came to his mother's attention. Being subservient to Leo, mostly out of fear that she would have no way to support herself, let alone her children, without him, she did little to stop the abuses, if anything. Losing the one figure that Crow trusted out of his parents in this way, his entire world shattered, and as terrified as he was, he knew he had to leave, had to take his sister with him and protect her, as much as he could, from any future abuse from his father.
Working after he got out of highschool, Lion moved out quickly, but Crow stayed at home, as his father wished of him. Once he felt he had enough money to support himself for at least a little while, Crow packed himself, and Coral, a bag. He loaded his father's car, never having been allowed to have one himself, and took Coral in the middle of the night, driving as far as they could before he found a place that sold cars cheap. He bought one, with some cash, and abandoned his father's in some parking lot.
It was found stolen some weeks later by the family, but Crow and Coral were long gone. They dare not stay in one city for too long, even after over half a decade of running. He won't let Coral go back to that house, even if it means him going to jail at some point. He refuses to let her suffer in the way he was forced to for two decades.
They wander from city to city occasionally, but they seem happy with each other's company. Crow home-schools Coral from whatever apartment, rented house, or cheap motel room they live in from day to day. They have few material possessions past their clothes and some boxes of books and things in the back of Crow's truck, but they're happy, with each other, if nothing else.
Crow's slowly come into his own after easing out from under his father's thumb. It's taken him quite some time, but he's come to accept his pansexuality, certainly being helped by the fact that he has a name for what he feels. He previously called himself queer, then bisexual, and has only recently come to this new label, but he feels it fits him. He's a bit more willing to talk to people, if only to listen to their stories; He's decided he can't make the world a better place if he doesn't know the people in it. He's not good at conversation, he feels, but he's a very good listener and sometimes that's what people need. Wherever he goes, whether he admits it or knows it or not, he's left a mark on someone. He's a good man, even if he's not sure about admitting that fact to himself.
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Gallery
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