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I only ask this because I could really use some advice on a major problem I'm having.Basically I need help with my depression because I have no one to turn to and I'm out of options.I live alone with my mom but she is the source of the major anxiety attacks I suffer from (as I type this I'm having one) because she doesn't approve of any of my choices and no matter what I do I always end up failing her,in her opinion.I have reached the point where I can't trust her with anything and I cannot feel emotion for her unless she's screaming at me,then I only feel hurt again.I have no real life friends and I'm incredibly shy in social situations,so I'm always alone.My mom is the definition of over-protective control freak,and when she gets mad she yells at me for hours on end(anywhere from 1 to 5 hours straight.) Basically I have reached my limit.I only have 2 emotions left: numb and intense pain. So my question is: can someone tell me how to handle my mom,maybe there's something I can do or say to show her I'm not the disappointment she thinks I am? I'm really desperate...

Bree, I'm so sorry this is happening to you. I know to many people in horrible situations, but they aren't financially stable to leave just so simple. I know you and I don't know each other that much, and this might come off a bit strangely, but I know you are a sweet person who deserves nothing more than happiness. Unfortunately, you aren't getting that right now as it appears. I suffer from depression too and lately I have dissolved into a state of numbness because I can't afford my medication for a little while.

Unfortunate, I also know that there is no way to change someone's opinion if they choose to only see the negative. I've had to learn this lesson the hard way, and unfortunately others I know have learned it well the hard way too. It might not be good advice, but the only I can give is that to live for yourself, take care of yourself.

I don't know much to say honestly, I'm sorry if this doesn't help. Maybe the thought counts?

And maybe some cute?

First off: you do not need your mother's approval in order to be of "value". I know it can be incredibly difficult, but believe you're strong enough to endure- you're reaching out for help after all. That's an incredible sign of bravery. I commend you.

Sometimes you can't change someone's mind. There will always be one person that will try to drag you down, whether that's their intention or not. You have to hold on. Find worth in yourself. Whether it's because you have a beautiful smile that someone needs to see, or a RP reply that someone else had maybe been waiting all day for, or simply because you exist- and yes, that is such a worthwhile thing.

Eventually you'll be out from beneath your mother's thumb. "Ending it all" is such a final answer to something that won't last forever.

I know this has been a lot of "you have to" and "wait it out". But I promise. Things will get better- and I'm talking from experience. I was caught in a situation much like yours. I asked my mom to sit down and we had a conversation that lasted HOURS. Things have become better since then. If you haven't tried that, then I would suggest attempting to talk with her.

You are not defined by your mom. I promise. Don't let her ruin your life.

I'm sorry everyone but I shouldn't have said anything about this,I'm sorry.

18 is old enough that you are your own person. If you choose to move out, she can't legally make you stay (though she may try using guilt). I don't know if you have a job; if not, try to find something. I don't know if there's anyone you feel you can trust; if not keep looking, even if you have to look far for it. When you can afford to, leave.

I know that work and money can be hard to come by, but alternatives exist. If you live in the US, try looking into programs like JobCorp and AmeriCorp. Those sorts of things tend to be set up to help you with basic needs like housing and food while your work through them (on the down side, you may not have internet access with certain programs). If you're not in the US, try checking out if your country has any similar programs. It wouldn't be glamorous, and it wouldn't protect you from people drama (since there'll be ridiculous people everywhere), but at least it could get you away from the one who, frankly, seems to be screwing up her job.

It's okay to ask for help.

Bree... I can relate in so many ways but I suppose my mom isn't as severe... There was a situation with her the other day that wasn't so big but I started hyperventilating and couldn't breath I was crying so hard and I didn't want to yell at her cause that's disrespectful and she usually screams THAT'S A SIN! Anyway my mother has also calls me multiple names on a daily basis so I understand totally I'm depressed too. Anyway what I'd do is I'd talk to my Mother civilly and explain everything if she refuses to talk or proceeds to yell at you I'd move in with someone else or do something else like find a source of money then I'd get a Apartment or House. You don't need your parents opinion I've learned this because no matter what you do there may be no resolution with some things but I'd still try to talk it out because she is your mother. And everyone needs help, everyone, don't hesitate to ask. And we're your friends everyone that's replied we care Bree! Hope you take our advice!