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Hi.. I have emotional and mental problems.. I hate myself because of what I've done, and what I can't do.. My hands are nothing but destructive.. Everything I say or do, just destroys something.. I'm really close to just giving up on trying to make things right.. Because everything/everyone I try to help, abandons me because I'm destructive.. I tried to fix the most important friendship I have ever had.. But it didn't work.. Because I'm nothing but stupid. I can't think the way I should.. I suck at everything in life.. I can't draw.. I can't sing.. I can't dance, I can't cook, I can't pick up heavy things. I can't even play game correctly.. I suck at English and its my only language.. I feel like a mistake.. And I don't know how to stop that.. I'm struggling to keep my friends.. But my personality has caused over 100 people to abandon me.. Because I'm nothing. Nothing but destruction itself.. Help me.. I need it.. I'm tired of doing this alone..

Hey man I cant really offer much on that friendship part though I am sorry to hear that but with the not being good at anything part no one isn't good at anything right off the bat it takes practice, interest and time so don't beat yourself up about it, one of my old teachers told us that no one is born "gifted" we are all born the same but its our life experiences that make us who we are, therefore you might be really good at something but never realized it.

I am sorry to hear that... But, I must say that I am almost the same as you. I know how you must feel. And I hope that you will be okay again