This is sudden, I know. I don't want to give myself the time to debate- to change my mind-, but I've measured what I'd be giving up: everything from my RP partners to the hard, meticulous work I put into my characters.
Though, I could cut it short and claim that 'there are reasons', I think an explanation is due here. Especially with all the planning I've done with new/old RP partners, and I hope this isn't beyond forgivable.
I enjoy RP. It's brought me many skills from literacy skills to some amazing friends. It's inspired me to become a better artist- my skills are better now than ever. All of this is great, all of this is wonderful. For the past five years, I've been able to develop here, but at the same time I wonder where time has gone and as I look back I realize it's been here. There would be absolutely nothing wrong with that if I hadn't invested so much into character building and weaving stories. Nine times out of ten, every time I would open my phone I wouldn't even check my messages first, I'd be here. Busy or not. Here was where my mind was half the time. Even when I wasn't actively responding, I was thinking about it, completely aloof and somewhat detached from everything else.There are times, though, when my muse wasn't here and I was able to look around. During those intervals, there was always something hinting me to let go. I would blatantly ignore it. I'd come back, start a couple new RP's- I'd want it completely eradicated from my thoughts. Most recently, though, it was on here that there was another hint- another strike to my resolve, and again just moments ago.
I suppose I won't berate Him, but that something is Jehova. I know by now I may sound strikingly similar to a religious bore, but there's no way around it. Before all this, I was a different person entirely. No doubt I have matured since then, but I've also drifted away from who I was. I've always known what I needed to do, I've just been running from it because I didn't want to give up these possessions. And, goodness, I've been pretty shameless in the act. Seeing everything that's happening in today's world, I can't afford to stay in place or look away. Matter of fact, I need to get out there. For you, for me, for Him.
Thank you all so much! You've been an awesome community! I enjoyed the ride, but after some motion sickness it's time to jump off. Again, to my current RP partners, I'm sorry this is so sudden and out of the blue. Especially to those who expected much of me, whose RP's showed much promise..
Welp. I'll be hopping on the next tide out. I love you guys! And I will miss you all very much!! This was always a great community and you made me feel like family.
I'll still be active on dA, Twitch.tv, and Tumblr though it's highly unlikely that I'll be doing any more character art. I thought about giving away my characters, but.. I think it would be wise to remove them entirely.
Happy and safe RPing everyone!
Though, I could cut it short and claim that 'there are reasons', I think an explanation is due here. Especially with all the planning I've done with new/old RP partners, and I hope this isn't beyond forgivable.
I enjoy RP. It's brought me many skills from literacy skills to some amazing friends. It's inspired me to become a better artist- my skills are better now than ever. All of this is great, all of this is wonderful. For the past five years, I've been able to develop here, but at the same time I wonder where time has gone and as I look back I realize it's been here. There would be absolutely nothing wrong with that if I hadn't invested so much into character building and weaving stories. Nine times out of ten, every time I would open my phone I wouldn't even check my messages first, I'd be here. Busy or not. Here was where my mind was half the time. Even when I wasn't actively responding, I was thinking about it, completely aloof and somewhat detached from everything else.There are times, though, when my muse wasn't here and I was able to look around. During those intervals, there was always something hinting me to let go. I would blatantly ignore it. I'd come back, start a couple new RP's- I'd want it completely eradicated from my thoughts. Most recently, though, it was on here that there was another hint- another strike to my resolve, and again just moments ago.
I suppose I won't berate Him, but that something is Jehova. I know by now I may sound strikingly similar to a religious bore, but there's no way around it. Before all this, I was a different person entirely. No doubt I have matured since then, but I've also drifted away from who I was. I've always known what I needed to do, I've just been running from it because I didn't want to give up these possessions. And, goodness, I've been pretty shameless in the act. Seeing everything that's happening in today's world, I can't afford to stay in place or look away. Matter of fact, I need to get out there. For you, for me, for Him.
Thank you all so much! You've been an awesome community! I enjoyed the ride, but after some motion sickness it's time to jump off. Again, to my current RP partners, I'm sorry this is so sudden and out of the blue. Especially to those who expected much of me, whose RP's showed much promise..
Welp. I'll be hopping on the next tide out. I love you guys! And I will miss you all very much!! This was always a great community and you made me feel like family.
I'll still be active on dA, Twitch.tv, and Tumblr though it's highly unlikely that I'll be doing any more character art. I thought about giving away my characters, but.. I think it would be wise to remove them entirely.
Happy and safe RPing everyone!
I can't decribe how happy I am right now.
I'm finally going home.
I'm finally going home.
Well, follow your heart then, farewell!
I'm sad, and honestly a little upset to see you go. I wish I had known beforehand that you were leaving. While I encourage you to follow your heart, I still think people who engage in continuous roleplay have responsibilities. When we roleplay, we engage others in common projects.
I keep getting abandoned by great roleplayers, with roleplays I thoroughly enjoy consequently being dropped. This is the third or fourth time within a year now. I guess that's the main reason I'm upset... It's probably selfish of me to think like that, but it just keeps happening over and over, and it spoils the fun for me.
But in the end: you do you your thing. Don't let people hold you back. Salty people like me probably just need to chill.
I keep getting abandoned by great roleplayers, with roleplays I thoroughly enjoy consequently being dropped. This is the third or fourth time within a year now. I guess that's the main reason I'm upset... It's probably selfish of me to think like that, but it just keeps happening over and over, and it spoils the fun for me.
But in the end: you do you your thing. Don't let people hold you back. Salty people like me probably just need to chill.
Well, that's a shame to see you go! I'm probably late to the party and it's clear that you're long gone, but if you ever see this, I hope that you find your peace and happiness in the world... Even though it seems like you already found it. If that's the case, then keep it. Hold onto it. Don't let go, no matter what. That's the best way to feel the most alive, in my opinion.
But if you ever come back to us, you will always have a home here. And we will always welcome you back with open arms.
But if you ever come back to us, you will always have a home here. And we will always welcome you back with open arms.
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