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Good Afternoon Guys. ..


I just felt dropping rp, in a general way, and drop the gaming here,or anywhere else.

I know I feel this, but I wouldn't really like to give in.

What can I say? I feel like, I hit the line, or the limit. I made up all my characters, but I can't seem to get anything going for good. My computer perpetually having issue doesn't help that at all. Not even talking Rp on the phone.
I feel like I waste time. I waste my whole, time.

I just, I tried to get back, to get the touch of it, but I definitly couldn't write anything I would find good, because I just have the feeling of void, the lack of happenings, the part where you miss out your life, but you have a lot of difficulty to get it back, get it good, better, use whatever term you would like to put here, all of them explain the point where you miss out a part of your humanity.

Friend-ship, real world, outside touch, skin to skin, the "hellos" the "goodbyes" the "how are you, what's going on in your life lately" kind of real friends. Not talking about the fact that pen friendship are not, no I won't say it, I can see you can be friends in whatever ways, even if does not inclue the hellos and skin contacts, and all, friendship is about "the soul" you know.

But I feel, I have the lack, of real time friendship and even relationship (with someone I love, and would love to get to just kiss the cheek; but there are rules, and we can't just jump the wall together, each others. Some would understand this problem, other won't. Probably the olders one with even experience will understood if I begin to explain. Anyway.)

It cuts my whole self. Happiness, creativity not so much, but I just can't "get in" and "get the touch" with the guys I roleplay with anymore, even if their characters are good and I would love to roleplay and play with them, because I sincerely like them.

I don't even see what I expect as posting up this, It's just the boredom, the wall, the wall I guess, who makes me talk like this. Or I just wouldn't go randomly around talking like that.

I feel like someone will throw stones, and I really would hate that, or dislike it even in the slightiest, I feel just exposed, it's horrible.

See you, hopefully. D'unno.


Mel



To all of those who uses to rp with that I didn't already told about, or where waiting to maybe have me get back to it.

Im not entirely sure what to say here. 💗

I hope everything gets better. If you ever feel like RPing or chatting. Im here, though im a bit bad at holding convos sometimes.


We all hit ruts like this sometimes. I have the uptmost faith in you. You'll recover from this. Even if you no longer RP and stuff. Our interactions were limited, but you seem like a very cool person.

I would suggest maybe taking a look around your town or city to see if there are any writing clubs. Like, for example, there's a few in my city (that I'm not apart of lmao) geared specifically towards providing people with support while they're self-publishing books or during National Novel Writing Month. They meet in coffee shops a few hours a week, bounce ideas off each other, chat, that sort of thing. If there aren't any where you live, maybe you could start one? It sounds like it might help you out to find some flesh-and-blood friends who share your interests.

Just a thought! Hope everything works out for you regardless.

Hi Guys, thank you very much...

I feel it might do me some good, yes, to slow down on internet and let go for a moment, might get a look around about what can interest me again, more.

Unfortunately, I can' really get into much activities outside my housings and my direct town, which doesn't have a lot of things to do. Problem are most even of the groups and associations are rare or I'll have to get to the next big town, and it's where it's becoming more complicated.

As for building my own group? Not really sure, a difficulty is find a place too, we could meet up in bars, true.

I rather meet up in a bigger town, I think I could use the change honestly.
I would rather get out an add about creating such a group in my bigger-but-near town, while willing to meet anyone that is doesn't in the said city too, if he can get to the meeting where we would partake, for everyone agreement, it would be good.

I began to think to find a work enterely different of what I used to do to keep myself occupated, wasn't suppose to be like this for my year, but hey.) part-iming and all are still a thing to go by when you're really in lack of things or people to meet or talk and see in a daily basis.

Having friends growing up and going on others countries or town doesn't help to keep in touch, when we did. ( We got some cold between us, since a time, and I wouldn't say we'll reach out to each others, I can't really know when and how we can now, or in what condition or occasion we would talk.)

I'll look up to find smething, a work, and a group, especially a work that get me less in the bore zone. Even if it means I'll have to undertake some kind of montly certifiation/stage or formation, because life had become a really horrible... hh. Horrible bore. And even if it's not a work for a life, or a work I'll got passion, I'll take that over anything else such a drifting through the bore-haze of being left with way too much life's emptiness.

In the waiting for my soon to come next-year (I can't believe I'm excited so much and disgusted and reluctant at the same time, it leave my a very bitter taste in mouth, you could understand if I explain, 'm sure.) I'll have to look how I can feel the holes and gaps.

Please, believe my gratitude for your answers. Thanks you!