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Well.

Title said it all. I'm so done.
I can't find or hold a work, I pass and skip between part-time and totally not worth employers or even just I being inadequate. I just can't be a liar, a thief, and most of it consist of do so, selling something you believe nothing about, selling for selling, selling without purposeful meaning, selling what you don't even know much about, something you're totally not convinced about.

Or anything, being hypocrite, for me. I just can't seem to be happy, and when I do that, it show, My poker face SUCKS.
I've been again again trying to put up face, but no, it doesn't work lol.

Plus, I'm just so done and * tired of thoses state of joblessness OR being in a job but can't seem to make it work anyway.

I've been doing bad jugements, and I regret, I got naive, now I just look at stuff and I would like to just move, but I'm stuck, stuck stuck.

I'll sound pretty bad rap too, but I just can't hold or stand the people who do work there, most of time.

They talk about beer, beer, alchohol, woman, make-up, brainless * stuff make no sense talk, just stupid talk, just done, so done.

I just wish to * get back to do something meaninful, and not stay with some wacks. Yeahs, I call them wacks, yeah. I judge, you could tell me that, whatever. I got thick skin about that, I understood we're not meant to be.

Just need some freaking help. Do not even can benefit from some plan to get a "in-between" certification to quite those jobs when I had it. It's the eternal circle. Got no special worker or management program, got /still look for way out, got no one to finance me. Stuck at home with a person who hate me (relationship turned sour) me side, but there is no one else I can turn to.
I barely make it every other day, I just wake up, dress-up, play the part, and get to bedroom again.

Help.
Dunno.
No, I already reached out to professional who are suppose to could help, but there is not a thing to do from here.
I tried, I still look for association, but it doesn't smell good into most of them. There is always something creepy, or something that is degrading, people who are not trying to brush UP youe ego, and some kind of guy keeping you in the victimization position when they talk to you. I'm just so * done.

Not talking about things I didn't tried already, hope the "other " new one I didn't try already isn't the same.

It's association for support or else, but da..., you don't do your work right, you do half of it.

I just want to rant and complain, I didn't did it for real since long, long time. I feel like I'm done keeping silent.

Thanks for listening.

Taking a break could help you.

I don't even see what kind of break I could be taking, you see. ...

And that's isn't what really come to my mind, I want to work to make it right, I rather spend efforts in doing so.

I won't spit on a week or two of true vacation bysomeplace remote in the mountains or something you do when you're in break, but anyway. Even If I want to, I have to see how I can manage that.

I might take a break someday, but it isn't really into a possible place in my agenda, right now.

Apply everywhere. You're not going to improve your situation unless you actively work at it, and it's hard to tell a job just from some title or description. Submit applications to any position that you might be interested in working in, even look into remote work positions if you don't want to deal with people. In order to make a change, you need to put yourself out there. A job = money, money = an apartment to get away from toxic relationships, etc.

Celestina. I did.

I'l get back on every post to more details on the situations.

I have debilitating sickness and working in certain work are near non-viable, people do not wish to keep me.

I lost my last two jobs due to physical (moral on top wasn't neat.) issue. I was suppose to go schooling this year but a * secretary didn't do it's only job properly ans sent me the wrong application informations, resulting on deadlines passes and those monkeys won't hear a thing about responsabilité and tell me to apply "next year". Those..... You dont need to hear that.

I mostly needed to get it out of my system for this one.