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Hello everyone!!

I'm not entirely sure if anyone I was rping with before will even see this, but here goes...

First off, I'm sorry I disappeared with no real warning or updates or ranything [to be fair, I was posting "UPDATES" on my profile, but I doubt anyone saw those...I enjoy this site, but I dislike the fact that we don't have a faster way of communicating with friends / people we're rping with...like a stream or something...

I know we have the OOC Group Big Chat...but that's not helpful when literally EVERYONE can see it...that just basically means the people you want to see somehting most likely can't or wont since there are hundreds of people on here lol

But anyway I'm rambling @.@

Again, sorry I left suddenly....

I could go on and on but basically heres what happened in a nutshell.....


~ I had motivation then got lazy
~ bad luck also happened, either I got sick, or someone in my family got sick and was always home
~ on top of the illnesses, people either had days off of work during the week or other random stuff kept coming up that prevented me from even getting on the computer for more than a few minutes at a time let alone reply to rps on either one of my accounts...
~ as I continued to reply to less and less things I got even more lazy
~ as I got more and more lazy I slowly started to realize that I was starting to get depressed again and ended up realizing that, although I cared about missing my friends, I just didn't care about doing much of anything....
~ I pretty much stopped talking to almost all of my rp friends if not all of them for a while...

The good news is that I'm going to attempt to change this issue....
My goals are simple, yet I'm still worried I might not be able to jump right in to most of them....


~ start going on walks every day / almost every day - the good news is that I've already started this one....I've gone to the park near my house 2 days this week and walked around for an hour each time....I've also started playing Pokemon Go again since it does literally force me to get out of the house since otherwise I don't get any Items sicne poke stops aren't really close to me lol

~ start working on rp replies once a week again - can't really say I've officially started this one yet , BUT I am on today and am hoping to at least work on one or two things between my two accounts ...... even if i don't get to finish and send them off...I'm hoping to at least get a few sentences or SOMETHING other than this post right here done

~ start practice drawing for this webcomic I've been wanting to do -- I've vigorously attempted digital art on my laptop for like a month and I just can't seem to make things look hte way I want / keep thinking things I do look like shit LOL...so I'm going to try the old fashioned way with pencil / ink / paper for a bit .........my eventual goal is to get an upgraded IPad and that Apple Pen I've heard a little bit about and get a really good editing app I can use on it and maybe that'll help me out in the future, but , That'll be VERY Expensive...so I'll have to wait...[unless people want to donate money lol]
though a ""MINI"" goal to rthat respect is to get one of those BIG fancy colored pencil kits....you know...the ones with like over 120 colors? Ya, I want that...but even those are like $100 or so....so that'll have to wait until at the very least when I'm a bit more confident in my drawing skills....[unless, again, people want to donate money lol]


As far as RL goals.....right now I can't say I have any? Which, I know, is kind of sad...but I'm just not even sure where to start with this...my current job sucks in terms of hours...but unfortunately I can't drive, so getting a new / better role that has convenient hours in terms of getting rides and stuff isn't very helpful....
....Meeting new friends would be great...there are a few people I like at work, but they don't seem very interested in me no matter how engaging I try to be when I talk to them or send them a text....They are nice enough but, sometimes I feel like some people are just being nice but don't actually want to be friends......ya know?
....All I really have in terms of family are my parents and my grandparents....the rest of my family either literally don't care about us or live to far away / [sometimes still don't care about us]


Anyway......I'm not sure what else to add other than these last few notes

~ I'm trying to get back into rping - YES all the rps I have in my inbox will eventually be replied to...I have no intentions of deleting them or starting over....I just hope those of you I'm rping with are still interested or will at least reply [if not, just let me know so we can delete things and more on....I understand and don't mind / have no hard feelings etc....]


ALSO IN THE FUTURE......

I you ever wonder where I a or what I'm doing -- please just take a look at my profile....I have an ""UPDATES"" section right at the top that will tell you what I'm either currently doing or what I have planned to do......depending on what's going on, I update this once a week if not multiple times a week.....sometimes even multiple times a day [this ones usually when I'm actually on AND working on replies though]


Anyway, thank you for reading this and again, sorry for just disappearing....I'm attempting to do my best with coming back and working on things

~Lady Maskarade