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Yep, it's me. It's that asshole again, KatayokuNoTenshiVII.

There is no reprisal. This is not my reprisal. This is my problem...

You see, I'm having trouble with things in real life. No, it's not emotional, I'm not depressed, I don't have anxiety, none of that. You've got the wrong guy, and I really don't want pity.

It's schoolwork. And it's my own fault. However, I cannot stress it enough, that my falling out is preparing on itself. I've got to take my responsibilities seriously, and all. Now, that alone sounds like I'm doing terribly. And I probably am, but it's nothing I can help, really. I'm just trying to live my life before I have no one to go to. And I think that this site is not the problem. I've met great friends here, and I don't plan on abandoning them.

And, honestly, with that, that's the first great pain out of my way. Now, the next one stings me a little,.however, if you don't want to read me "whining" about my RPR issues, then just leave this post. I won't force anyone to read on.

Anywho. I've found that no one wants to RP with my characters (except those who do and are doing so), really. I don't know if it's that people don't like my characters, or if they find me intimidating. It's really nothing I can help, anyway.

Now, I see you making the argument: "But you're not posting on the 'Looking for RP' forum" or "You're not messaging people to ask them for RP" or something like that. And, right now, you're right. I'm not, because each time I've tried, it ended miserably where either the player had to drop out early (which I totally understood, and I forgive them), nobody took a valid interest, and, lastly...When I finally broke my bubble of shyness, and messaged a particular player (names will not be named)...They did not respond. Well, okay. Nothing I can't help. So I don't have any interest in doing either.

Which brings me to the next topic. I have to delete characters that aren't being used or RPed with...And honestly, when it came down to canon characters...I was fine..But, when I had to delete my OCs because nobody really wanted to play with them, I had to think long and hard over that. It hurts to see something you worked hard on destroyed because nobody wants to play with them. Now, you may be aware of mt character, "Aelle"...Well, I've been thinking, and I've determined that, by Monday, I'll have made the choice to either terminate her here, and her traces on another character of mine's page, "Astra", or not.

This is just what I have to say. Now, I come to apologize.

To the great community of the RPR, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I can't be quick all the time, I'm sorry I suddenly quit. I'm sorry. I want to make it clear that I don't mean to do it. I have a live and so do you, however, mine's going to a road of stress. I love this community, however, it's just painful to watch my cycle be broken because I don't feel my characters are appreciated enough. And let's be honest, it's not that I don't mind them being appreciated, however, the thing is, I had these characters made elsewhere, and putting them here was something I decided to do, though it's becoming evident that I'm being cast to the shadows.

I'm sorry for wasting your time with my stupid "rant", but I needed it off my chest. I'll be trying to get replies done, but I can't guarantee anything. Sorry about that.

For now, I'll consider my options. However...If you've made this far. Then...thanks. I really appreciate it. More than you may think, with the way I made it sound "blue". I'm done typing now, so you can continue on with your life or whatever you may be doing, I suppose?

Aelle should stick around...after all, I think she may have a future here. After all, it takes true puu to make a gripping story using a lot of our units that can change fates~

If she does have to go, I would want her to do something for the girl who cared for her...but I hope we don't lose her.

Either way, this puu is still right here, still ready for us to have a fun~

Hey, no need to apologize dude.
Totally understandable, and that really sucks that you're feeling that way here. Makes me a bit frustrated that people don't take the time to get to know you or your characters and don't appreciate them or the work you poured into them.
I would offer to rp with you if I weren't so swamped with life myself. So you're not the only one who's stressin lol. Just take care of yourself, don't worry about this stuff here, or what others think of your characters or rps, as long as you enjoy them, that's all that matters.
No worries! Always is a listening ear somewhere here willing to read "rants" (which isn't stupid btw, there is nothing wrong with expressing your thoughts and feelings).

Uhm... *raises hand* I just wanted to ask you something. Does this mean you have to leave? It's probably a stupid question to ask, seeing as you didn't specifically mention that, but if you are considering it...

Then can I say that I love your characters? I've never gotten a chance to say anything about it, but I do. I love reading over your profiles and seeing what you've added to them all. It's a shame that you feel like your characters aren't getting the attention they deserve, but I think maybe some people (like me!) are just too shy to reach out to you and say how awesome they are or that they want to roleplay with you because you seem amazing.

I understand how you feel about not getting enough roleplay though. I don't ask people or post many adverts in the forums because I think people are scary creatures that go bump in the night I'm beyond painfully shy. I'm honestly okay with not being noticed, to be fair with you; I'm used to it. But I still try anyway, even if no one bites or I just don't say anything at all and lurk about the site posting things at random.

But I do hope schoolwork gets better for you, man. I've been there with it piling up on me to the point where I had no choice but to get it all done, especially in college. I wish you the best of luck! And I wish you luck in finding roleplay too; you really do seem like an incredible roleplayer.

About that question...

No, I'm not going to leave. As reality crashes down on me, I must be within a place where I can escape, at least for some. It may mean some hiatus, which is understandably unavoidable at this tine, however, life must do its own thing. I'm going to be okay, and try to lift the weights of reality up so I can actually be having more fun than I might've if I hadn't. I love this community, and even if time judge that I had to leave the RPR, nothing's gonna change that. It's always fun here.

But, really, I do appreciate the warmth of the comment! It's uplifting, even if I must go another day away from what I love to do, which, honestly, at this point, I don't know much...I suppose we'll see, won't we? Heh.

Hey, a hiatus is totally fine if you need it! Everyone needs some time off to get things done.

And I suppose we will see, good sir! But I and everyone else will be more than happy to welcome you back when you do return!

Even I, the deliberately unknown proprietor of the Xenoworlds, have to take time off from the fun worlds I make every now and again. A hiatus can happen for any reason. Don't sweat it~ No one is alone~

Of course not! I don't mean to sound like it worries me...

However, I have determined...that I shall not keep Aelle. Xeno, I'll send ya another doc with more character ideas later. Heh. As of being nice, however, I shall allow said request before I magnificently (or poorly) obliterate her into...I dunno?

Well, if Aelle must go...
Can she at least pull off a Heroic Sacrifice~?

I'll look forward to what that doc holds~

You may do as you wish...As for the doc, well, expect FF characters...of either gender. Heh.

It's set. We just need the music box~

Look this up: CosmicBreak Sacrifice

Hmm...Somehow, I find this one fitting better: Peaceful Sleep ~ Music Box

Anyway, as soon as my Kindle stops acting like it doesn't wanna load my images...I may have to send that doc later...Hmm...It'll have...one...or two...unique characters...

And Asami even made a memorial for Aelle.

So as not to forget...

>_<' We may yet see what the future holds~

I did the same thing honestly...I made characters for my writings and decided to bring them here. I've only been here for a week or so and I have a couple rp partners but the thought of bringing my OC I have created over the course of years and exposing them here is a terrifying thought. What if no one likes them and they all think they suck? What would that mean for my writings?

So I can completely understand that part of what you're saying. Scary to think it could be me some day, but to that point I now feel a drive to look through your characters. Lol.

So dont mind me while I snoop through your pages, maybe when you're ready our worlds can collide some day.

Best of luck ~