Forgive the title's poor grammar, I didnt really know what to call this and the best description I could think of was that, but the 'of' didnt fit in the title limitations so I had to remove it.
I feel like I have a bit of a catch 22 situation when it comes to roleplaying right now. I have several semi-active-ish slower RP's still on right now, but usually I kinda rely on my faster RP's to get me in the mood to do slower RP's (and also to write). Like after I respond to fast RP's I am in the mood so I continue using that energy to give longer more thought out responses to my slow RP's and sometimes also to write. For a little while several months ago I was doing pretty good responding the day after I got a response on all my RP's.
Now I've been focused on other things for a while so I havent posted any LFRP's or really responded very well for some time, then after that I've been trying to get back to my studies before I worried about other things. For some of my slowest RP's I've now had replies waiting for like a month or two, and my story has pretty much stalled in place for like three months. Though part of that is the also-present diminishment of interest in that since I cant get anyone to read it. I mean I'll get over that, but, ok whatever I'm getting off track. Sorry, this is pretty much pure stream-of-thought monologue.
Anyways, the issue is I thought I would come on to post LFRP's for some RP's, then after I started a new RP that would get me back in the mood to reply to my generally longer standing RP's. But then I just... Didnt really think of anything I wanted to post or reply to. If you've ever seen my LFRP posts you know I basically just post the same thing over and over again, since I generally always wanna do the same thing and they always only last like... well, usually they don't even get started, the most frequent result is the other person disappearing as soon as I post the starter. I dunno why, maybe I'm just secretly the worst writer on the face of the planet and nobody thought to tell me. Whatever. Whats important is that I just kinda don't feel like doing that anymore, but if I'm not doing that, I dunno how to get the energy to actually reply to the ones I still have going and I do want to continue those.
its not like I don't want to RP, exactly. Its more just that, I dunno, I feel kinda resigned? Like I feel like its been such a long time since I've really had something really exciting or fun, so it kinda feels like a waste of effort to put any time into it. And that's kinda been around for a while, I stopped looking for more plot-focused RP's years again just cause it feels really bad to spend weeks brainstorming and coming up with twists and stuff only for literally none of it to ever be used. So I have mostly just focused on faster ideas that didn't require much setup, but it turns out I'm pretty bad at keeping momentum up if I don't have a specific plot, and my non-action cuteness-focused RP's, everyone else seems to get tired of after a few days if they aren't me.
Like, I still want to do lots of things, I just don't really have the motivation to try. Certainly I think the issue is more to do with me, cause I do have a handful of reliable RP partners I've had for a long time, though they're definitely greatly outnumbered by the category of people who don't stick. Just it seems to slow down, I find I have trouble reliably responding to RPs if they aren't super fast cause I have to get back into the mindset every time and sometimes I forget all my ideas by the time I reply again, and I guess thats why I really rely on having some fast-paced roleplaying to get me in the mood to reply to those. But it seems like the partners I still know after a long while are exclusively the ones who respond once a week or month or whatever instead of once an hour, which is understandable and all but its just when thats all I have its really hard for me to get back into it and then I end up taking even longer to reply than they did.
I've tried like, talking to a couple of them and being like 'what if we just plan a time to reply in real-time for a few hours', but I dont think anyone has really gotten that idea and they just get the impression I'm being impatient. Which to be fair maybe I am, I dunno.
Maybe whats triggering this is I just get kinda jealous of people who talk about having DnD sessions and all the stuff that happens in them, while I absolutely struggle to have ANY kind of plot development occur in an RP even after months. I mean I try, I've been skipping over some of the minor details and planning for some of my RPs but it still takes literal weeks or months to get through even a single small scene, and I think most of that time is waiting on me. I know that I'm able to write solid fight sequences and stuff in shorter timespans, cause I've done it before years ago when I had bigger group RP's that didn't immediately collapse before they even started, and even more recently like when I got to the big fight scene in my story (like fifteen pages, written in about a month, seems pretty reasonable to me. But barely anything written in the months since then.) But that's all.
I dunno if I really have a point or question with this, I just kinda felt like putting my thoughts in a public space where people could see it and respond if they wanted.
I feel like I have a bit of a catch 22 situation when it comes to roleplaying right now. I have several semi-active-ish slower RP's still on right now, but usually I kinda rely on my faster RP's to get me in the mood to do slower RP's (and also to write). Like after I respond to fast RP's I am in the mood so I continue using that energy to give longer more thought out responses to my slow RP's and sometimes also to write. For a little while several months ago I was doing pretty good responding the day after I got a response on all my RP's.
Now I've been focused on other things for a while so I havent posted any LFRP's or really responded very well for some time, then after that I've been trying to get back to my studies before I worried about other things. For some of my slowest RP's I've now had replies waiting for like a month or two, and my story has pretty much stalled in place for like three months. Though part of that is the also-present diminishment of interest in that since I cant get anyone to read it. I mean I'll get over that, but, ok whatever I'm getting off track. Sorry, this is pretty much pure stream-of-thought monologue.
Anyways, the issue is I thought I would come on to post LFRP's for some RP's, then after I started a new RP that would get me back in the mood to reply to my generally longer standing RP's. But then I just... Didnt really think of anything I wanted to post or reply to. If you've ever seen my LFRP posts you know I basically just post the same thing over and over again, since I generally always wanna do the same thing and they always only last like... well, usually they don't even get started, the most frequent result is the other person disappearing as soon as I post the starter. I dunno why, maybe I'm just secretly the worst writer on the face of the planet and nobody thought to tell me. Whatever. Whats important is that I just kinda don't feel like doing that anymore, but if I'm not doing that, I dunno how to get the energy to actually reply to the ones I still have going and I do want to continue those.
its not like I don't want to RP, exactly. Its more just that, I dunno, I feel kinda resigned? Like I feel like its been such a long time since I've really had something really exciting or fun, so it kinda feels like a waste of effort to put any time into it. And that's kinda been around for a while, I stopped looking for more plot-focused RP's years again just cause it feels really bad to spend weeks brainstorming and coming up with twists and stuff only for literally none of it to ever be used. So I have mostly just focused on faster ideas that didn't require much setup, but it turns out I'm pretty bad at keeping momentum up if I don't have a specific plot, and my non-action cuteness-focused RP's, everyone else seems to get tired of after a few days if they aren't me.
Like, I still want to do lots of things, I just don't really have the motivation to try. Certainly I think the issue is more to do with me, cause I do have a handful of reliable RP partners I've had for a long time, though they're definitely greatly outnumbered by the category of people who don't stick. Just it seems to slow down, I find I have trouble reliably responding to RPs if they aren't super fast cause I have to get back into the mindset every time and sometimes I forget all my ideas by the time I reply again, and I guess thats why I really rely on having some fast-paced roleplaying to get me in the mood to reply to those. But it seems like the partners I still know after a long while are exclusively the ones who respond once a week or month or whatever instead of once an hour, which is understandable and all but its just when thats all I have its really hard for me to get back into it and then I end up taking even longer to reply than they did.
I've tried like, talking to a couple of them and being like 'what if we just plan a time to reply in real-time for a few hours', but I dont think anyone has really gotten that idea and they just get the impression I'm being impatient. Which to be fair maybe I am, I dunno.
Maybe whats triggering this is I just get kinda jealous of people who talk about having DnD sessions and all the stuff that happens in them, while I absolutely struggle to have ANY kind of plot development occur in an RP even after months. I mean I try, I've been skipping over some of the minor details and planning for some of my RPs but it still takes literal weeks or months to get through even a single small scene, and I think most of that time is waiting on me. I know that I'm able to write solid fight sequences and stuff in shorter timespans, cause I've done it before years ago when I had bigger group RP's that didn't immediately collapse before they even started, and even more recently like when I got to the big fight scene in my story (like fifteen pages, written in about a month, seems pretty reasonable to me. But barely anything written in the months since then.) But that's all.
I dunno if I really have a point or question with this, I just kinda felt like putting my thoughts in a public space where people could see it and respond if they wanted.
I sort of feel you. I have many rps that I always have some plans for, or things I want to see come out of, and then at the most they get about…an average of one, to four responses before I start to never see the person again.
It makes me a bit anxious. I don’t know what I did wrong if no one tells me. Was it to much? Did I not involve them as much as I should have, was the plot just turning into something stupid? Was it none of that and they just sort of fell off the sight? I don’t know.
It sort of stresses me out a bit, I want to RP with people and I want there to be a open discussion on if I’m doing something wrong instead of just never seeing that person again. Things almost always seem great, I respond, they respond with a good post back, that happens a couple more times until too much time goes by with no word and I’m wondering what I did wrong.
I think the worst thing that has ever happened to me though just did happen /: Basically I started the RP, put a decent amount of effort into a good starter, probably one that was in retrospect a bit too much, and at the very least the person did respond but they said “I don’t know what to say” and frankly I haven’t responded because neither do I haha. Neither of our characters have met yet so the idea was to have the two sort of introduce themselves and then meet up in the next round of posting but when they said that I sort of caved in on myself. Like “okay…what now…I can’t just tell you what to say did I do something wrong did my post suck should I have introduced you myself or is the concept of the world confusing I don’t know I’m broke here” lol.
And it’s starting to make me a little fatigued on RPing. I never make a RP idea that should last too long, maybe looking at a month or two with consistent responses. Because I like to actually try to finish my stuff, and when one ended if we liked each other hey let’s think of a new one, or a sequel. But even with me approaching RPs with a shorter time frame…I still haven’t seen one finish in about 6 years. I’m near the point of giving up, but I love Rping too much so I’m holding in there
It makes me a bit anxious. I don’t know what I did wrong if no one tells me. Was it to much? Did I not involve them as much as I should have, was the plot just turning into something stupid? Was it none of that and they just sort of fell off the sight? I don’t know.
It sort of stresses me out a bit, I want to RP with people and I want there to be a open discussion on if I’m doing something wrong instead of just never seeing that person again. Things almost always seem great, I respond, they respond with a good post back, that happens a couple more times until too much time goes by with no word and I’m wondering what I did wrong.
I think the worst thing that has ever happened to me though just did happen /: Basically I started the RP, put a decent amount of effort into a good starter, probably one that was in retrospect a bit too much, and at the very least the person did respond but they said “I don’t know what to say” and frankly I haven’t responded because neither do I haha. Neither of our characters have met yet so the idea was to have the two sort of introduce themselves and then meet up in the next round of posting but when they said that I sort of caved in on myself. Like “okay…what now…I can’t just tell you what to say did I do something wrong did my post suck should I have introduced you myself or is the concept of the world confusing I don’t know I’m broke here” lol.
And it’s starting to make me a little fatigued on RPing. I never make a RP idea that should last too long, maybe looking at a month or two with consistent responses. Because I like to actually try to finish my stuff, and when one ended if we liked each other hey let’s think of a new one, or a sequel. But even with me approaching RPs with a shorter time frame…I still haven’t seen one finish in about 6 years. I’m near the point of giving up, but I love Rping too much so I’m holding in there
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