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nightmqre

People who know me well will know that I like to do a reflection every year around this sort of time. This year, I'd like to share mine with you, and see your own!

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What did you enjoy most about 2018?
What did you most dislike about 2018?
What did you achieve in 2018?
What made you stronger in 2018?


What did I enjoy most about 2018?
In 2018, I'd have to say I enjoyed getting my new glasses and hair cut the most. While other great things have happened, and many of them would considerably out weigh this to other people, it's really important to me. Getting this new look has made me feel more confident than ever which has raised my self-esteem.

What did I dislike about 2018?
I'm going to be 100% honest: being homeless for my birthday sucked... It made me very upset. That, by far, was the worst part of my year in 2018. </3

What did I achieve in 2018?
Here's a list:
  • I improved my writing skill
  • I improved my artistic skill
  • I lost weight
  • I came 2nd in a talent competition
  • I made someone smile
  • I confessed a secret that improved my life for the better
  • I got my forever home and am no longer homeless!

What made me stronger in 2018?
Being homeless for eight months definitely made me stronger as a person. I will not take anything for granted anymore.
My friends made me stronger, more confident, and proud of who I am. Same with my family.
I'm glad you came out on top.


What did you enjoy most about 2018?

1. Going to San Antonio and seeing my friends.
2. Discovering that I can write (which happened because of RpR).
3. Meeting friends on here.


What did you most dislike about 2018?

1. Getting our lease not renewed at one apartment complex because our dogs had puppies (which we didn't add to the lease). 2. Getting our lease not renewed again, a year later, because one of the dogs nipped at someone. So, that having to move at the last minute thing. But it's over now!

What did you achieve in 2018?

1. I made it to my 20 yr high school reunion
2. I got my pharmacy technician license renewed
3. I got a new job
4. I helped keep my mom independent for another year
5. Sandra and I went to some plays
6. Sandra and I went to counseling for a bit but it's too expensive
7. I discovered that I can write, on here, and I've written an entire medieval romance roleplay, and one hurt/comfort one to completion, one short story (not fully completed yet), while starting many other romance, H/C, science fiction, fantasy, and crime RPs. So, I guess, the point is, I've started writing. And that's an accomplishment.
8. I've made some absolutely great friends.



What made you stronger in 2018?

I don't know how to answer this one. I've become kind of weaker in a lot of ways over the last year as far as attendence and punctuality and things. I went through a period of semi-unemployment and so I guess that pushed me into trying harder at the job I'm working now.

Fear of running out of money made me stronger! Lol. It sounds like I'm kidding, but it really does.

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Thanks for creating this, it's a good activity to do. Hadn't thought about the year this way, in this much detail, until now.
Rogue-Scribe

  • What did you enjoy most about 2018?
    Hmm.... life, and discovering RP Repository.
  • What did you most dislike about 2018?
    Being away from most of my family.
  • What did you achieve in 2018?
    If working and enjoying life is an achievement, then that' is what I did.
  • What made you stronger in 2018?
    Not taking a shower? Seriously... every day lived is another day of life experience, and so each day of life made me stronger.

Yeah, I know, pretty simple answers. 2018 didn't really have any real highs or lows in it for me. There were some of each, but they weren't all that extreme.

Thanks StaticNightmares for this thread!
What did you enjoy most about 2018?


Probably my experience with NaNoWriMo. I did it in 2017 as well, but 2018 was just so...fun, and welcoming. It was really nice. I went to a lot of write-ins, met some really nice people, and am still going to the once a month writers meeting that we have the other 11 months of the year so that we don't all go 11 months not seeing each other. I felt supported, loved, wanted, cared about. For the first time in a long time I actually had/have somewhere to be in person where I feel like if I didn't show up people would wonder where I was. I also got a lot of writing on the first draft of my second book done, which feels great.


What did you most dislike about 2018?

1. US Politics. Being stripped of my bodily rights. I pretty much can't move back to the state I was born in unless I want to be sentenced to death if I happen to need or want an abortion. :D

Struggling with money. Just all year. It's irritating, I feel guilt, and a like a burden on my father sometimes. The Holidays are even worse because I get to see everyone else getting new phones, games, computers, other electronics, and feel happy for them but end up feeling sad for myself - which makes me in turn feel like I'm wrong.

What did you achieve in 2018?

I got the second draft of Ignited finished, I wrote most of hte first draft of East of The Sun. I made in-person friends.
I got even further in my body positive journey; I went the longest time I ever have without relapsing.


What made you stronger in 2018?
I got rid of clothing that I didn't like because it made me feel gross about my body, and am in the process still of buying clothing that makes me feel good about my body. I said 'screw it' even more and take way more outfit photos and post them on my instagram and ignore the mean comments because the ones full of love outweigh them. I'm fat, I know it, I still love my body and want to dress nice and share with people. They still hurt but I do my best to just delete them and get on with it.

I'm going to add a few more topics for myself.

What made you weaker in 2018?

Not setting up with a new therapist. This year might have been easier if I had actually done what I said I was going to do and made an appointment with a new therapist, at least for once a month - but I never did. I'm positive it negatively affected my year and my personal growth. I did have quite a but of personal growth in some areas, but in others I did not. I am weak for this - and I don't think it's a a horrible embarrassing thing, weakness is human.


What got better for you in 2018?

My chronic pain is a bit better than it used to be. It still sucks, I still have days where it's hard to walk, but my hips and my legs aren't as bad as usual. This might be because of a new bed, but also might just be a stroke of luck. It's a crap shoot with chronic pain and illness honestly; but I haven't felt as held back by my pain this year as in 2017 and before.

What are your goals for 2019?

Get the final draft of Ignited done, and get it published in July. Get the second draft of East of The Sun done by October, and plan the sequel to it in October and then start/write the first draft during NaNoWriMo.

Goals that aren't related to writing are: Get outside more this summer when I can, I'm sensitive to heat and my bones sometimes refuse to work but I want to get outside more.
Get a new laptop. My current laptop is old, and heavy, overheating, and occasionally refuses to start.
Don't relapse; but don't beat myself up about it if I do, breathe, and start another fresh day.
Keep a consistent journal.
Don't give into diet culture and food-guilt. It will only make my recovery more difficult.
What did you enjoy most about 2018?
I can't think about anything specific honestly? At least not in terms of events or anything. But I will say that this has been a great year for personal growth for me, and that's been nice <3


What did you most dislike about 2018?
US Politics. I'll leave it at that lol.

Also, this year has somehow gone by in the blink of an eye while also taking 10 years off of my lifespan and I have no clue how it did that.


What did you achieve in 2018?
The beginning of this year was very meh, but in the later end, I ended up getting a lot of growth artistically and personally. I've started drawing on a much more regular basis, made my own portfolio website that I'm actually quite proud of, end just overall am really happy with where I am right now as an artist.

Also, I made up with a friend over a petty issue, and got closure with someone else on the same thing. It's nice to just leave all the anger behind where it belongs.

Also, as much as I still deal with anxiety, I've learned the value of just pulling the reigns on my brain and saying, "No. We're not going to focus on this. Focus on something else. Do art, write, make a new character, do anything else," and it's really helped to reign in my anxiety a lot of the time.


What made you stronger in 2018?
This circles back to personal growth. I feel like I've matured a lot this year. It's easy to make mistakes in a situation, but at least once I did so, I was able to look back and go "Oops, okay, don't act like that again."

I've learned the value of just sucking up my pride and apologizing.

And again with anxiety, as seen in the last answer. I still have my bad antsy anxiety days, but I can at least recognize it as my anxiety throwing me off kilter over something probably not even that bad, and I can distract myself or just outright tell my brain "Stop that, stop that right now" and move on.



As much as I can look back at this year and point out some negatives, I feel like this year has been overall really good for me. Granted, I'm in a really good place right now, so I might be a bit biased in my mood affecting my memory, but... just overall, it's been a surprisingly good year personally. :>
Sanne Moderator

What did you enjoy most about 2018?
I discovered the Diabetes Discord server and made more real life friends this way than I thought possible. In March, a friend from said server visited me and due to circumstances has stayed with me since. He's now someone I consider my best friend, my partner in crime and someone I can trust 100%. We both have diabetes and it's so gosh darn nice to live with someone who just gets it, who doesn't judge, who doesn't freak out on me for going low or being high and who knows what to do in case of emergency.

He was already friends with a now mutual friend who only lives about 1 hour away from me, whom we've been visiting and who's been visiting us regularly throughout the year. This disease can feel hugely isolating because a lot of people don't really care that much about the disease (it's weird how such a serious condition that can literally kill us overnight if we make a mistake gets glossed over so much) but these friends have made such a difference in my life.

My roomie also offered to let me try one of his insulin pumps, which is how I ended up getting my own from my endocrinologist in June -- one of the best decisions I've ever made! This thing is a game changer for me and I'm so stoked that all my numbers have improved so much.

What did you most dislike about 2018?
That financially things got more rough than ever before. :/ My friend is doing his best but can't contribute financially, which stretches my budget quite a bit. We're scraping by but I'm really looking forward to some relief in 2019 in whatever ways are possible.

What did you achieve in 2018?
- I started school again!
- Made a lot of new friends
- Helped a lot of people find solutions to their problems and supported them
- Got better control of my diabetes
- Discovered that weed is a much better alternative to morphine and Xanax to treat my chronic pain and mental illness symptoms
- Improved my makeup skills dramatically

What made you stronger in 2018?
I'm not sure I got stronger! I don't really feel stronger, I still feel kind of the same. I gained a lot but also lost a lot, so I'd say it's all balanced out quite a bit.
Claine Moderator

What did you enjoy most about 2018?
  • I went to Japan and Singapore! It's the first time I've taken (non-sick) leave off work in years.
  • I've had a job that I enjoy, pays well and is close to home (hits all the winning points :D)
  • I've been in some fun RPs :D

What did you most dislike about 2018?
  • Health Issues.
  • Motivation Issues. I've been really down on my art for most of the year and I have a hard time starting/finishing artwork.

What did you achieve in 2018?
  • Improvement in Art - despite lack of motivation and output, I can notice a difference between my art today and 12 months ago (this being said, I am still dissatisfied at where my art is at)
  • Completed a RP!
  • My health has improved a little. It's probably the first time in years that I've ended the year healthier than I've started it.
What made you stronger in 2018?
  • I got minor surgery which improved a long standing health issue.
  • I booked in to see a therapist early next year.
  • My health has improved.
Hope 2019 treats all of you well! Or, if not, that you can make the best of it anyways.


What did you enjoy most about 2018?
  • Having friends for housemates
  • Met some talented writers and lovely people on here

What did you most dislike about 2018?
  • Not a fan of the "I'm one month's rent away from homelessness" theme that seems like it's going to dominate my 20s
  • Lost my enthusiasm for writing

What did you achieve in 2018?
  • Kept my scholarship for my final year of university
  • Finally acknowledged that I'm a maelstrom of untreated mental illness and started sorting that out
  • Improved my cooking abilities (baking's still abysmal, though. Today I dumped icing sugar into batter instead of flour.)

What made you stronger in 2018?
  • Health improvements
  • Just generally gaining more life experience and learning how to be a functional adult and/or a better person, I guess.
... I seriously don't remember what happened the first half of this year. How long has this year been, you guys???

What did you enjoy most about 2018?
That would probably have to be the month-long trip to the United States. Having frequented the Middle East, I didn't think you guys were going to let me in! And the trip was amazing, I had such a great time.

What did you most dislike about 2018?
Having to write my thesis, and not being able to finish it in time. It really sucks to not being able to finish, and thereby stretch the pain of writing it longer, but I also want to hand in something I can really be proud of.

What did you achieve in 2018?
Saint-like level of patience, I think.
I also learned to pull myself into a hip hold in Aerial Hoop, without falling on my face, which was pretty neat.

What made you stronger in 2018?
Coincidentally, my much hated thesis is making me stronger. Through writing it I'm learning a lot of things about myself, that I'll hopefully be able to apply to a grown-up job in the new year. You know, one of those jobs you're supposed to get after your degree, where you tell people "I have skillz", but you secretly don't have a clue.
This has been a wild year for me, making friends, attending counselling for the first time, losing some, gaining some, finding out about myself and establishing my identity and whatnot.

What did you enjoy most about 2018?
  • Discovering RPR
  • Spending Time with Now Ex-Friends
  • Attending counselling group sessions
  • Talking with people on RPR
  • Finally getting to use watercolours

What did you most dislike about 2018?
  • Meeting and made friends with people who in the end, hurt me badly
  • Dealing with my mother
  • Losing my six-month old support group
  • Counselling sessions

What did you achieve in 2018?
  • Semi-recovered and accepted the drama that led to the falling out between friends
  • Learnt better coping methods
  • Actually began to put effort into studying
  • Learnt folk art-I hated it though
  • Learnt to bake, cook and make jams
  • Learnt how to organize
  • Improved social skills
  • Realizing my independence and finding my identity
  • Made a several friends in real life
  • Gotten a hamster and learnt to take care of it
  • Made progress with getting over my mild social anxiety
  • Probably achieved a gentler and more patient behaviour-I hope

[/b]What made you stronger in 2018?[/b]
  • Realizing several life-changing values that will probably stick with me from now on
  • The falling out between friends
  • Advice from my counsellor
What did you enjoy most about 2018?
Becoming a somewhat happier person
Playing my favourite video games with my best friend non-stop
We got a new cooker
Finding new music

What did you most dislike about 2018?
My neighbours being horrible people.
Suddenly realising how much time I've wasted.

What did you achieve in 2018?
Making this account and finding people to roleplay with!
Learning unfamiliar words to expand my vocabulary
Learnt to bake a few new things.
Gained courage, I finally did things I was too afraid to do and the experience has emboldened me to do more.
Finally started drawing again (this current month, but hey! It still counts!)
I got myself a new journal and began to-do lists, and actually stuck to them.

What made you stronger in 2018?
Counselling and mindfulness and taking some real chill-time (not self-indulging but really giving myself time and space to just exist so that there's a chunk of the day where I'm not worried about something, because I'm not thinking at all. I guess it's like meditating but not spiritual).
What did you enjoy most about 2018?

A lot of things!
I discovered the absolute BEST musical artist ever (in my opinion and tastes) so I'm going to be happy for the rest of my life with this knowledge.
I improved a lot in art I'd say! I still suck but it happened!!
I did a really cool roleplay with a really cool person!
I had a lot of stew this year. Stew is something I constantly hunger for.
A kitten decided to adopt my family so now that stink exists.
I did befriend a robot from outer space who'll enslave the human race, starting the year 2047, so that was cool. She hangs out with my friends now and only eats strawberries, cheesecake and gingernut biscuits. Weird, I know.
Speaking of friends, I hung out a LOT with mine this year, and that was great!

but most importantly, OB <3

What did you most dislike about 2018?

While I had a lot of positives this year, I had a lot of bad things happen.
There was the time I got thrown into a wall.
And the time my beautiful boy OB came home covered in blood (This year would be 100% better without this part...)
I got woken up by my best friend, to learn that he'd been kicked out and he didn't know where to go and what to do. My heart broke as this guy cried in my kitchen as I slowly learned of the abuse he'd been suffering from his heroin-addicted mother. I'm glad that now he's with his father and junk, but I hate the fact that he had to go through all that :(
The brutal death of our youngest chook (R.I.P. Lily), followed by the deaths of her friends Nora and my sweetheart Jessie...
I didn't have the best year mentally. There were plenty of times I broke down, or felt crushed by a swarm of uncontrollable and ugly feelings. Like, I have anger issues, so much so that I'll start punching walls or smashing my head against shit for stupid reasons. I need help :)

What did you achieve in 2018?

I made a small and pretty bad platforming game based on my character, Sad Balloon! As a first dive into gamemaking, it was fun and I'm proud of myself! Like, I learned a lot from the class.
I got out of my comfort zone in traditional art this year and I'd say I did well!
I played some fun games!
I passed all of my subjects despite really freaking out (shoutout to my house group teacher who helped tutour me in maths because I have issues with that)
I went to the beach and came home without injury! Is my curse ruined? Am I free?
I managed to get sick. I was gonna hang with friends for new years. I probably can't do that without risking getting them sick.

What made you stronger in 2018?

I dunno really. I suppose it boils down to what we define as 'strong' and, well, 'stronger'. I might have gotten stronger with controlling my urges to physically harm anything during a breakdown, maybe a little bit more emotionally in general- hell I'd even say I've gotten stronger physically too. So I've gotten stronger, but I don't really know how to answer properly.
What did you enjoy most about 2018?

-Another year with my fiancé is something that I always enjoy.

-I finally went overseas to the Philippines for the first time with my mother. I had two weeks in the Philippines, and it was honestly just so fun and exciting! I got to experience a lot, and see so many beautiful sights.

-I got over a lot of stuff in 2018, including a lot of what made me severely depressed last year in 2017.

-We were finally able to do stuff for our families for once... like... that felt so nice after six years of constantly struggling to pay rent and utilities. (It still isn't much since we're doing our best to save, but it was at least something!!)

-I felt like I could really help my friends out more through their own struggles and tough times.

-My cousins were able to visit the United States for the first time, and we in my current household got to be a part of welcoming them here.

-First year I've gotten my hair dyed twice. Once at the start, and once at the end. Love the colours!

What did you most dislike about 2018?

-Oof... that I couldn't help as many people as I would have liked.

-I got sick while in the Philippines because of my accidental ingestion of the local water through ice. TT__TT So I couldn't do as much as I would have liked.

What did you achieve in 2018?

-I was able to treat myself more this year, and just reward myself for a lot of my personal accomplishments.

-I made some new friends in 2018 that mean a lot to me.

-I got over old "friends" that proved they never cared about me.

-I actually did a lot more background work in my art this year than previous years, and I actually feel really good about pursuing backgrounds in 2019!

What made you stronger in 2018?

-Realising just who actually are my friends versus who isn't. Taking the bad excuses that my "friends" had for their abuse or mistreatment of me, and saying "no, this isn't what a friend does. You're not my friend. Good bye."
nightmqre Topic Starter

I'm happy to see that, mostly, 2018 generally seems to be a goodbyes for people. I hope 2019 years you all well :)
FreeJayFly wrote:
What did you enjoy most....

I love your art so much and I wish I could commission but I'm too broke T^T
haunt

What did you enjoy most about 2018?
  • made a lot of new friends and reconnected with old ones that i had lost touch with
  • i think that my writing has improved quite a bit?
  • first tattoo and i became an adult lmao
  • ive honestly matured a lot and i’ve discovered a lot about myself over the past year
  • got accepted into the university i’ve wanted to go to since middle school

What did you most dislike about 2018?
  • my mental health has been an absolute rollercoaster, it’s nowhere near as bad as it was last year but it’s been. a lot.
  • had to pry myself out of an abusive friendship which i didn’t accept was abusive until after i was out of it and the whole ordeal caused a huge ptsd relapse where other old traumas started affecting me more than they had in years. and the fact i’m talking about this publicly is something i never thought i would ever do but.
  • CHRONIC PAIN

What did you achieve in 2018?
  • won a photography contest
  • managed to keep my grades up despite my mind constantly feeling like it’s .2 seconds away from imploding

What made you stronger in 2018?
  • honestly i just feel like i’ve gotten weaker lmao. but i don't think that's necessarily a bad thing because i've recently accepted the fact that i'm allowed to be emotional and sometimes i just need to break down for a bit. so in a way my weakness is something that made me stronger?
psoliver wrote:
honestly i just feel like i’ve gotten weaker lmao. but i don't think that's necessarily a bad thing because i've recently accepted the fact that i'm allowed to be emotional and sometimes i just need to break down for a bit. so in a way my weakness is something that made me stronger?
That is absolutely possible! Recognizing when you just need to get away and break down so you can recover from whatever caused you to break down in the first place, is a major strength.

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