Okay, you hit a really rough patch and now you're thinking of doing something to yourself. There's no shame in it and no judgement, but please breathe and try to distract yourself from these thoughts.
Go through this check-list first.
If you're unable to pull yourself away from these thoughts and urges, PLEASE reach out to someone by phone or website. No matter what you're going through, you're not alone.
US: 1-800-273-TALK
US Crisis Text Line:
text 741741 when in crisis. Available 24/7 in the USA (no charge for your texts with AT&T, T-Mobile, Sprint, or Verizon)
US LGBTQ Youth (the Trevor Project): 1-866-488-7386
US Veterans Crisis Line: 1-800-273-8255 (press 1)
Canada: 1-800-SUICIDE OR help lines and centers by province OR 911
International: Befrienders Worldwide
http://www.befrienders.org/
Australia: 13-11-14 (lifeline) or 1-800-55-1800 (kids help line for 5-25 yrs old)
Is your country not listed? Please consult this list, or use Google to find the crisis hotline of your country.
https://www.facebook.com/help/103883219702654 (No FB account needed)