Do you know that you'll do it to minimize his impact and help someone?
... "yes... One person should not have so much active power on others. I don't want to let these 'stories' be 'edited' by Av unchecked. he needs a censor to prevent his worst from being let out for public viewing... Even if leaving him unchecked would be the fastest way for him to take the route down the, 'over-active lord' path, history has proven with both that dream bubble popping monster, and... with my other self, that lords can cause extreme amounts of irreversible harm before reality cuts them down to size using the very actions they are supposedly responsible for. I guess in lieu of a muse inspiring Av into less active measures, I'm here now to take total control over keeping him in check... it sucks... Times like these when you think about exactly how powerful Muses really are even in comparison to a Lord."
It sounds to me like you have a plan of your own that you're driven to act on.
"well its not been much of a plan so far, since it mostly involves needing to react to what Av does. And short of forcing something, such as finding a new Muse or something for him, I'm having a very hard time coming up with another plan... ... maybe... hmm. Maybe the problem is that i've been trying to keep him in check all by myself... Av knows me, my weaknesses, triggers, limits... ... I. ... I don't want to say it. not directly at least.
It is difficult, facing something alone. There's a reason the game is played in teams.
*deepest sigh* yes... I'll admit it. I can't get what I think is right done alone... And the moment I try and get someone's help, it will no longer be trying to do what I think is right, but trying to do what me and they think is right... but, I think I'm realizing I'll have to accept that, no matter how much life has hammered self-sufficiency into me... I'd just like to take a moment to thank you for talking with me... its brought up some old hurts, and some raw hurts, but its been helping...
We do best in groups. Really. And, you're welcome. It probably wasn't the direct kind of help you were expecting, but I haven't done anything like that in a long time.
"going to be tough finding a properly united group... but I hope that maybe your Muse would eventually be willing to lend some aid..." *he briefly smirks* "groups do better huh... guess that explains what the last guy started doing back 'home' once I 'left'..." *he sounds a bit... less upset. thats good*
"well, I was willing to seek a more direct audience with you, being a fellow 'boot', but i'm not going to force anything with the Muse. Av has left the option open to her, and if she chooses to pop into my office, then i'll talk with her then."
*raises an eyebrow* Is it your office, then, that's on the other side of that door?
"Yes, and there are a few things there. most namely a certain subsystem that is trying to learn how to re-create the conditions about Ribbon's soul so he can do that to try and protect Onponn as best it can. we've had to start, VERY simple in the work of heart science."
You do realize that she's under the impression that the person on the other side of that door will undo everything that's happened because of our game.
"What? No. That's Av just saying I'd do it if she asked. I know that I wouldn't trust Av to set things right without any sick twists like her mother becoming her child, and she becoming her mother's sprite." "No no, it's only an option to ask."
Especially since a portion of what Av has set in motion would be undone if the game were undone... I don't know the details, but I know she has become very involved with the family there. *sighs* It's just as well that she won't take the offer, then. She's too hopeful at the moment for that.
I'm guessing Av would put her fears to rest in time. If anything, I bet he wants her to talk to me more than I'd want to.
Yep... ... Thankyou for having had this talk with me. I feel like i'm understanding myself alot better now. And that can only be good. Not knowing myself only leaves a space void of acceptance in me that Av would be more than happy to take advantage of."
... "I guess we're done here. If you want to leave, Av's got the door."
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