“Go away.” I say, it’s harsh and I know it but for some reason I don’t care right then.
“So we aren’t going to talk about what happened at the dance?” I ask, brown eyes gleaming.
“What happened at the dance? Nothing happened at the dance, therefore nothing to talk about.” I say, half walking half running down the hall.
“Listen if you don’t like me then I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have kissed you. But can’t we at least be friends? Because you seem like a pretty cool person.” I ask.
“Not right now? As in no we can’t be friends right now, or no I can’t talk right now, or something else?” I ask.
“No we can’t be friends right now, I have a lot going on.” I say.
“Like what? I could listen, I’m a very good listener.” I say, at what she assumes is an attempt to make her laugh, and a poor one at that.
“Like how my father is getting remarried and I’m going to be a bridesmaid.” I say, pushing my way into the classroom. I am so glad Brennan and I don’t have this class together.
“Fair enough.” I say, raising both hands in surrender and walking off, presumably to my class.
I let out a sigh of relief.
Thank God.
Now I just have to figure out how to avoid him for the rest of my life.
Oh, and not feel bad about it.
I mean he couldn’t be nicer, he is incredibly nice.
He apologized for kissing me because he clearly understands that I’m not interested.
He still wants to be friends.
The universe is making me a horrible person.
Or am I making me a horrible person?
Thank God.
Now I just have to figure out how to avoid him for the rest of my life.
Oh, and not feel bad about it.
I mean he couldn’t be nicer, he is incredibly nice.
He apologized for kissing me because he clearly understands that I’m not interested.
He still wants to be friends.
The universe is making me a horrible person.
Or am I making me a horrible person?
I don’t really know which is the correct answer.
I mean I’m making the choice to avoid him.
I didn’t choose to fall in love with Joseph.
I don’t think anyone chooses to fall in love.
I think if we got to choose we would all choose not to fall in love, because this is torture.
I mean I’m making the choice to avoid him.
I didn’t choose to fall in love with Joseph.
I don’t think anyone chooses to fall in love.
I think if we got to choose we would all choose not to fall in love, because this is torture.
I don’t hear a word Ms. Davies says during the entire class.
My mind is elsewhere.
Honestly, I wouldn’t mind having my mind stuffed full of boring math, if it would mean that my mind isn’t on Joseph and Brennan, even for only a little while, the I would welcome it.
Unfortunately that seems impossible.
My mind is elsewhere.
Honestly, I wouldn’t mind having my mind stuffed full of boring math, if it would mean that my mind isn’t on Joseph and Brennan, even for only a little while, the I would welcome it.
Unfortunately that seems impossible.
I sit down at the lunch table and sigh. Joseph's not there yet, it’s just me and Katie.
“Are you okay?” I ask Char as she buries her head in her arms, her head is facing the gross cafeteria table but I guess she doesn't care. She raises her head and shoots me a look.
“Hey, don’t be like that, I didn’t do anything.” I say. Char loves me, I'm the type of person who knows when to shut up, when to speak, and will stick up for myself.
“You get to peacefully fall in love with your soul mate.” I say.