It has been a long hard road we've traveled...
And I've hurt a lot of people along the way. Broke a lot of hearts. Maybe I'm breaking more, which is the last thing I want. I hope that you all remember that, at the very least. That I never would ever want to hurt anyone. You are all so special in one way or another. I hope you know that. In my beliefs, God gives everyone gifts and talents. Unique to their own. And maybe Autism is my "gift" and talent I have yet to use correctly.
I don't know, honestly. Right now it feels like a curse. I did something very very shameful, and very very unbelievable considering I went through the very same thing. I don't know what came over me, but I honestly don't want it to come over me again. And I know it's partially due to my want to continue my roleplay plots. But if it's gonna cause me to beat an already beaten down person over it?
Well man, it's just not worth it.
I know it sucks, near the holiday and I'm giving my goodbyes. But well, I am. Now those of you have me on discord and can stomach to talk to me again despite my misdeeds. I'm still available for talks. For those of you who had romance plots. Still available on RPR. Just don't expect great activity. I'm LEAVING Furcadia in modern dreams. For good. I can't do that to myself or anyone else again over a damn stupid game. I'll make up real-life cities for my modern charries that you insist we continue plots on. I will. But I'm...I'm tired. I'm just so tired guys. God tells me not to give up the fight, but honestly, my only purpose was to plant seeds. And I think, at least I hope. I've done that well enough to all of you. Planted good little positive seeds in each of your lives that will blossom beautifully down the road.
Write amazing stories, I know you all can do it without me.
And I've hurt a lot of people along the way. Broke a lot of hearts. Maybe I'm breaking more, which is the last thing I want. I hope that you all remember that, at the very least. That I never would ever want to hurt anyone. You are all so special in one way or another. I hope you know that. In my beliefs, God gives everyone gifts and talents. Unique to their own. And maybe Autism is my "gift" and talent I have yet to use correctly.
I don't know, honestly. Right now it feels like a curse. I did something very very shameful, and very very unbelievable considering I went through the very same thing. I don't know what came over me, but I honestly don't want it to come over me again. And I know it's partially due to my want to continue my roleplay plots. But if it's gonna cause me to beat an already beaten down person over it?
Well man, it's just not worth it.
I know it sucks, near the holiday and I'm giving my goodbyes. But well, I am. Now those of you have me on discord and can stomach to talk to me again despite my misdeeds. I'm still available for talks. For those of you who had romance plots. Still available on RPR. Just don't expect great activity. I'm LEAVING Furcadia in modern dreams. For good. I can't do that to myself or anyone else again over a damn stupid game. I'll make up real-life cities for my modern charries that you insist we continue plots on. I will. But I'm...I'm tired. I'm just so tired guys. God tells me not to give up the fight, but honestly, my only purpose was to plant seeds. And I think, at least I hope. I've done that well enough to all of you. Planted good little positive seeds in each of your lives that will blossom beautifully down the road.
Write amazing stories, I know you all can do it without me.
